Random thoughts

Real quick post and I'm done lol gotta go to church in the morning.




I just want to touch on something real quick.



Why is it that we do or say things and totally don't do what we say we will. I know that question is completely random. I don't have a reason to ask either. But it's just on my mind. I never meant to lie to my ex. But I did. And I did it over and over. My next question is why do we fight things when God has something different planned for us. It's like I knew that gettin back with my ex was prolly not gonna work, but I tried it anyways and less than 24 hrs later it was over. I knew that I was not cool wit her already sleeping with her guy wasn't gonna be easy for me to get over but I tried to let it go. It def didn't make me physically attracted to her but when I saw her I did feel like everything would work itself out. Well it did but not in the way we wanted. It just felt like I was forcing her to be in a situation that she didn't want to be in cuz she is right back wit the guy the day after we fell out. Not to mention that she has been talkin to this guy for 2 months. I didn't know that. If I did then I def would have prolly let it go a long time ago. I mean I'm not one to try to prevent people from being happy. Even tho this last time was her idea to get back together. I don't think she would really be happier with me than with him. What she has with him is nothing like what we had and with my new friend I'm not trying force what my ex has on us. I think sometimes when people brake up they feel like they need to reach a certain level before the other does. It's kinda like a power battle that doesn't even really exist but we'll be damned if we see the other out with another person and we are still alone. Not saying that's what I'm doing cuz I could really care less about what she does to the point where I'm just trying to compete. I mean she is sexually active with this guy. Why should I be all sad and at home thinking about her and what went wrong. I know why things are the way they are. Suck it up and keep moving. Besides I'm good over here with what I got. She makes me smile with heart(what u know bout that kanye lol )i know my blog is all over the place but it's just thinks that I want to get off my chest. I have other things but it's late and I need to get some rest. Catch up with u guys later
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