so i gotta admit, i've been in this funk for a few days now. its not anything that i did, but its from some things that were "revealed" to me the other day. a really good friend of mine told me something that he did and it really upset me....well let me take that back, it disappointed me because i would have never in a million years expect him to do something like this. i got some real low down "friends" but he wasn't like that. and what really made me mad was that not only did he lie to me about it, and hide it, it was the way he told me. he said it like...idk really how to describe it but here is his words "before her ass try to make it into some bullshit...."
so u guys see where i'm coming from right??
one thing that i know about myself is that i'm a very trusting person and i actually treat my friendships like they are suppose to. if my homeboy tells me something i keep it between us. if someone needs something and i have the funds to get it, i got u. hell, u can put me in a room with ALL my homie's girls and i wouldn't touch them. i don't cross that line. i guess its just a sign for me from God sayin that i need to watch who i call a friend. because...well honestly, i prolly can say that excluding the big homie, whom i just met btw, i can't trust 95% of my male "friends" i think thats why i don't have any real male friends anymore. my best friend is slowly lettin his life go to waste by not actually doing anything with his life and is still jobless and still smokes his life away. not sayin that there is nothing wrong with gettin high, but get a job first. my former college homies are ALL bums and liars. i had a friend whom i woulda did anything for try to fuck my ex on multiply occasions. not to mention he has 3 kids and only half way takes care of the first one(only because he's named after him)i just want positive people in my life. if it means that i don't go out or go to games with the "guys" or have to watch fights alone then so be it. but i'm not gonna worry about small things like this anymore. i've made it this far and i'm still going on. to my male friends that don't fit into this category, don't take it personal. i'm just sayin. the fake friend crap is over.
It's sad (& sometimes hurts) when you have to let "friends" go but that's part of growth. It's hard to believe that some that you've kept close to you, like they were fam, don't have your best interest at hand. But with you letting them go, you're making room in your life for better people.
ReplyDeleteDude...I'm so feeling this post. I've learned my lesson about friends as well. The crazy part is the people I need to distance myself from are more than friends....THEY'RE ACTUALLY FAMILY!
ReplyDeleteare you gay?? no likely seriously im starting to think you are
ReplyDeleteplease don't ever question my sexuality. nothing i have EVER posted has said i was gay or anything remotely close to that. i have written countless posts about my ex girlfriend and previous relationships with women that u clearly haven't read. so again do us both a favor and either stop commenting or keep thoughts like that to yourself.
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