Bday coming soon!!!

whats good everyone!

shout out to my new blog followers, i dig all of you all's blogs and i will be commenting on your future posts, so feel free to do the same here. mi blogga su blogga or something like that lol

*side note* found some old janelle monae music online tonight and i'm liking it. if only i could date her. then my life would be complete lol

i don't think i've expressed it to you all, i know i did on twitter, but i've decided to grow my hair out a little and to let my beard grow out fuller. i had a full beard for months now and i cut it off a few weeks ago *biggest mistake* and now i want it back. i never grew my hair and beard at the same time so i'm gonna do it! besides, when i get married i know my wife ain't going for me having these different hair styles so i might as well get them out of my system now lol i can see her face now lookin like the mom from everybody hates chris sayin "negro, get your ass to the barber shop!" hahahahahaha oh yeah the workouts are going well too. my body is almost looking the way i want it to. working on your abs is the hardest part. its the most painful part of the workout. one of my buddies is real muscular and he helps me with different workouts to do. i don't know how he does it sometimes. that ish hurt too bad!!! lol

i applied to the new position at work and i'm really nervous about it. if i get this position its going to change a lot of things in my life for the better. i know that i'm perfect for the job, but its just a matter of "the powers that be" deciding if they should take a chance on me. i just need to get them in the room for the interview and i will take it from there. my personality and will power will take it from there. *random thought* someone told me i was stuck up the other day. clearly they don't know me. but i digress.......

my birthday is in ONE WEEK!!!! I'm really excited. so i made a list of things that i want for my birthday but i don't think that i'm going to get any of them for gifts, well maybe two but here's the list: yankee fitted hat, avatar on bluray, gift certificate to Express and mike and ike's green box candy. i'll let u guys decide what u think i will get lol but thats not too much to ask for right??? i mean its not like i said i want a pair of gucci slippers with the belt to match*although if anyone wants to get them for me, feel free lol* but i'm going to have a birthday dinner next wednesday at this mexican restaurant to celebrate and i can't wait. it's been a while since i really celebrated my birthday. the only thing that i'm concerned about is my different friends "meshing" together. i have a very.......wide variety lol of friends and idk how they are going to get along. i mean they may not even talk. they may just stay grouped up and talk to the people they know. who knows??? i mean its my birthday. i just want everyone to get along, have fun and have drinks. speaking of my birthday.....nah that's ok. i'll keep that to myself. lol it was a random, yet pointless thought. lol

peace&love

weekend update

i'm a little annoyed at the moment for whatever reason. But writing always makes me feel better. And thats just what i'm gonna do.....and listen to 808's and Heartbreaks

my weekend was a cool. a little crazy, but it was cool. on friday i went to this party at a friends house and i had a good time. a lot of people showed up so that was cool. i met yet another of my ex's friends. it was very awkward. it was one of those meetings like "aren't you...." but i really didnt let it bother me. i did however want to say something but i wasn't in the right mind to do so, so the next time i will speak my peace.......but back to the party......there was a fight. two girls. it was dumb. but here's the funny part. me and my homie are outside chillin with some girls and out of the blue someone runs to the door and shouts "COOKOO COOKOO" and the girls that were outside instantly knew what she was talking about. my thing was how the hell did they come up with this sound and decide on making it THE "sound". i would have loved to have been a fly on the wall for that meeting lol but the girls ran inside to go find out who was fighting. come to find out it was about some nonsense that has been brewing all day from campus, but i dont really know more about it, nor do i care about that stuff.

there was something else that happened that night that really upset me, but i don't want to get into full details on it, but i will say this. there comes a time in your life when u have to realize that your actions speak louder than your words. u just have to grow up and some of my friends need to do that. i put myself in that box too. not as much as he needs to, but u guys get my point.

saturday i worked and today i didn't really do anything. Baxter and I went riding for a bit before the rain started and that was it. My birthday is coming up in 10 days and i'm really excited!!!! i've been thinking about what i want to do for it and i will tell u all later in the week and i will use you all's opinion and votes as well.....thats all for now. until next time

peace&love

i'm ready......

I've been having this..........feeling....... for a few weeks now. but I've been fighting it. I've denied it. But it keeps showing itself to me whether its been in my dreams or just in my everyday thoughts. i told myself that maybe it was just because of the music i listen to or maybe because i'm at the house alone.....that's not it either. the fact remains.........I'm ready to be in a relationship. I'm ready to give myself to someone and enjoy all the benefits of being with her.


I've enjoyed the past 3 1/2 months of "dating" and meeting new people. some were better than others. some were a complete waste of my time. But each one of them made me realize what I NEED, not what i want. And although, i can't possible get EVERYTHING that i want from one woman, i DO know that the important things are definitely attainable. Some of the girls that i have met, could have been a girl that i could have been in a relationship with, but it was just bad timing. I've had fun at the clubs and going out every weekend, getting drunk with the fellas, but i'm ready to just chill with that special one. i want us to go places in Memphis that we normally wouldn't think to go. I've found a few places in the mid town/ downtown area that look exciting to go to, but I'm not go to these places alone and look like a spaz lol i don't think i took advantage of that in my former relationship. Sure we had times when we just chilled but i don't remember us just enjoying each others company like we should have. there were times when we'd spend the entire day together, but we still argued for the majority of the day, and then we'd make up and for the last hour or so we'd be together, we would be cool again. Definitely not doing that again lol i really did learn a lot about myself looking back at my previous relationship. i did a lot of good but more bad than good. its all apart of growing up though.


Now, I'm not saying that I'm about to just jump into a relationship with the next girl i meet, because that would be stupid. lol i AM however going to focus more on the things i need from a woman instead of the want, because the "want" has been winning a lot lately and its time for a change.

issues resolved

a few entries ago i wrote about having issues with being "friends" with my ex girlfriends friends. and i have decided on not to say anthing. my ex hit me up and we talked about it. but she didn't exactly get into her opinion on it, but she thought that it would be best if i expressed how i felt to them. but honestly, i'm not really concerned about them.i dont see/speak to them enough to care. speaking on my ex, last sunday she sent me a text that really meant a lot to me. for the longest now, i've felt a certain way about how things ended between her and myself and it was nice to hear her say what i thought she didn't feel. i dont really want to get into what was said, but it was needed for me to completely move on. because honestly, when u have a brake up and it wasn't on good terms, there are things that need to be said, for both sides to feel............closure.maybe not both sides because i can only speak for myself. don't get me wrong, i HAVE moved on, but there was a small portion of me that needed to hear that to be 100%.......idk. i think i'm rambling now. smh

as for amy giveaway

hey everyone!!!

for all of my followers, check out my fellow blogger amy's give away! http://asforamy.blogspot.com/2010/04/giveaway-made-simple.html
but don't enter to win because i want to win hahahahahaha jk jk, but more importantly, check out her blog. its pretty dope.

hope you guys are having a great weekend!

weekend update, single ladies

hey everyone!!!


i have been sick the past couple days so i haven't been able to update u all on what has been going on. i'm feeling better but i'm not 100% i'm probably at 65% i guess. i feel well enough to go to class today but i'm probably not gonna go to work today. i have some pto left so i'll use one of those days. but anywho, let me get u all caught up.....


this weekend was fun. i went out friday and saturday night. friday i went to happy mexican and had some drinks with some new friends. i had a great time. i never had a margarita from there before and i've heard that they are pretty strong, but i always figured people got drunk because of the size of the drinks.....WRONG. i drank a beer with my meal and decided to order one after i ate. folks, when i say it tasted like a bowl of tequila i'm not kidding. so i downed my bowl, and we all went to this house party. well before we left the restaurant, this young lady and myself were feeling each other a little bit and after the liquor settled in we really became close. so we get to the party and she and i are talkin dancin a bit, laughin, flirting. well the party ends and we decide to exchange numbers. well, i take her number down and i put her name in my phone and she says "wait. thats not my name." i was like "yes it is." the entire night folks, i swear she told me her name was jasmine. after a back and forth battle for 2min she finally tells me her name....it was jessica. #o_O So the next morning i wake up and i look to her name and send her a text, how bout i only took down 6 numbers. clearly this isn't meant to be. her friend gave me the number again, but at this point its almost like whats the point. she hadn't called me at all, so i mean i'm not trippin. its not like when i see her again i'm gonna have this mean attitude. but i just thought that it was funny, because A)i'm not big on gettin anyones number while drunk B)well there isn't a B. LOL but naturally i am terrible with remembering peoples names, thats why a majority of my friends have nicknames. besides my home boy told me that she smashed the homies anyways so whatever.....on to the next lol


on twitter lately, there's been this craze to talk about relationships and how there aren't any good men/women out there. i saw a documentary on black women and how they said that 42% of black women have NEVER been married. thats RIDICULOUS!!!! there are 1.8 million more black women then men. so i know that there is definitely one out there for me lol, but here's the conflict, people have to realize that the "stanards" that they have aren't real standards. like a man can't eat pork or he can't drink or smoke or he can't under 6ft tall. dumb ish like that will make u the 43rd%. i used to say that i would never date a girl that wore weave. my ex wore it(still laughing at that wig lol) i said i would never date a girl that had a child. in todays society, the odds of finding someone that doesn't have a kid isn't rare, but they are hard to come by. thing i look for in a woman are things like education level, relationship with God, her family, her moral values is what i'm gettin at. u can't have this laundry list of random things that u know you will never find in a person. i still don't prefer a woman that wears a weave, but if she does it has to look real. i'm not dating someone that has a weave like nikki manaj. i think if we just sat down and thought about it we would find the one for us.

also if u still out here sleeping around with every tom, dick and harry, what makes u think you can find a good man? i know this girl that prefers to sleep with a certain frat and she has slept with this one guy and his fraternity brothers for about a year now and she runs off at the mouth that "niggas aint shit". no ma'am YOU aint ish. keep your legs closed. i have a home boy, he says he's going to settle down and be with one girl, but every time i look up, he in some broad face "spittin game". at what age do u you realize that that shit is for the birds. yeah being single has its down times, but i'd much rather be alone than to be know as the guy thats sleeps with every girl he meets. and women know when a guy is easy. they talk just like men talk about women. u may think that u playin them, but the girl will have the last laugh homie. cuz they laughin at you everytime u come around.

but anywho, thats all i have for now. i have another post i have to post but i'll do it this afternoon.

peace&love

song of the day

so like i said last night i was going to post an old school song of the day so here it is! ENJOY! have a great weekend folks. be safe and God Bless

attitude and wasting my "time"

i haven't blogged in a few days because i've been battling this......attitude....but not like a bad attitude. its more like a "should a care attitude". as u all know i've become close with 2 of my ex's bestfriends. i really wouldn't say close either. i'm cool (yeah thats the word) with them. but one of them, kinda has this way about her that bothers me sometimes. its like sometimes she's real friendly and then there are times when she's distant. my homeboy, who is VERY close with them, tells me about conversations that they have had about me in the past and they have said things about me, but its only things that my ex has told them, but everything that she has said about me, isn't true. But with them being her friend, the are obviously going to be on her side. that's not the issue tho. my problem is i wish that they would either let it go or don't come around. i mean, they don't have to talk to me or come around when i'm there. i mean, don't get me wrong, i actually enjoy them. they are really cool girls. they keep me laughing. but i want them to accept me and just be cool ya know. i mean if u don't like me, why add me on twitter and talk to me? i remember my ex saying somethings about them and my homeboy he's told me things that confirms the things that she has said, but i don't look at them any differently. i just wish that they would do it too. i really feel like sitting them down and just getting everything out in the air so we can get to the root of it. but at the same time i feel like sayin eff'it and just not care about it.


u ever feel like you're time is being wasted because its not being used?? lol well thats how i feel. the past few days, i've been feeling "some kinda way" but not in the way. i feel like i shouldn't be at my house alone at 1am typing a blog. lol i feel like i should be spending my time with someone that i care about. being single just has its moments i guess. this must be one of them. #ejshrug

btw my twitter name is @EJ_theKid follow me.

well thats all i have for now. gettin a little sleepy and i need to get up for class in the morning. i'll try to post a song of the day tomorrow too. its an old school song. i heard it today on my way to work and i sang every word. i'll give u guys a hint: uni brow lol

peace&love

Easter and the weekend update

hey everyone!!! Happy Easter to you all!!

did you guys eat well? i know i did! i'm still stuffed lol i have a few things to discuss tonight so lets get into it shall we.....

after i posted my previous entry, i felt a lot better. my attitude is much improved. in fact the dreams have stopped, but the sleep is still an issue. but i may see a specialist about it. i've tried everything else so i might as well give it a try right??? i started working out last week too. i'm tryin to gain 10 pounds by june. i know what u guys are thinking, but i really have a hard time gaining weight. my 11 yr old cousin weighs more than i do and he eats the same amount of food i eat. lol this week i'm going to GNC to get some protein bars to help me keep the weight on. i've only been workin out for a few days, but i can already see a small improvement in my physique. all i need to work on my is my abs. those are the hardest things to get. no wonder people come out with those lazy ab builders so that they don't have to actually work for them. but i am focused and i am ready to walk around without a shirt on and so i can hit em with the flex while lookin at my watch while i tell someone the time hahahahahahaha jk jk.

this weekend i really didn't do much. i went to a birthday dinner at PF Chang's on friday night and afterward we kinda hung out for a bit and then i went to walmart to purchase some things. saturday night i went to Huey's to watch my Blue Devils win! one more game and we will become NCAA Champions!! after that i came home and watched a movie. i wanted to go see clash of the titans and the tyler perry movie, but i knew that the theaters where going to be too crowded, so i will go Wednesday afternoon after class.

my ex came by my job friday night. we talked for a few. it was cool. it was kinda weird seein her after havin all the dreams i had about her. we also talked later on that night when i got off. i enjoyed the convo we had.i'll admit i probably enjoyed it a little more than i should, but again, like i said last week, she and i always have good conversations. i had a few concerns about it though, BUT after thinking on it and talking to the big homie and another friend about it, i came to the conclusion that what i was bothered with was really nothing. i already felt that i was thinking too much on it, but i just wanted to discuss it with them to make sure that i wasn't crazy. sometimes its good to just think and listen before you actually do something. i find myself thinking more rather than reacting as of late. i really feel myself growing with each day that passes and i feel closer to the day that i meet someone that's going to fill that void i'm missing. but for now, i'm 100% comfortable in the shoes that i'm in.

thats all i have for now. hope you all have a great day! i was watching notorious while i wrote this and this song was in the movie and i immediately remembered when this song came out when i was a kid. had no idea it was about biggie back then. do u remember?? lol

PEACE&LOVE