attitude and wasting my "time"

i haven't blogged in a few days because i've been battling this......attitude....but not like a bad attitude. its more like a "should a care attitude". as u all know i've become close with 2 of my ex's bestfriends. i really wouldn't say close either. i'm cool (yeah thats the word) with them. but one of them, kinda has this way about her that bothers me sometimes. its like sometimes she's real friendly and then there are times when she's distant. my homeboy, who is VERY close with them, tells me about conversations that they have had about me in the past and they have said things about me, but its only things that my ex has told them, but everything that she has said about me, isn't true. But with them being her friend, the are obviously going to be on her side. that's not the issue tho. my problem is i wish that they would either let it go or don't come around. i mean, they don't have to talk to me or come around when i'm there. i mean, don't get me wrong, i actually enjoy them. they are really cool girls. they keep me laughing. but i want them to accept me and just be cool ya know. i mean if u don't like me, why add me on twitter and talk to me? i remember my ex saying somethings about them and my homeboy he's told me things that confirms the things that she has said, but i don't look at them any differently. i just wish that they would do it too. i really feel like sitting them down and just getting everything out in the air so we can get to the root of it. but at the same time i feel like sayin eff'it and just not care about it.


u ever feel like you're time is being wasted because its not being used?? lol well thats how i feel. the past few days, i've been feeling "some kinda way" but not in the way. i feel like i shouldn't be at my house alone at 1am typing a blog. lol i feel like i should be spending my time with someone that i care about. being single just has its moments i guess. this must be one of them. #ejshrug

btw my twitter name is @EJ_theKid follow me.

well thats all i have for now. gettin a little sleepy and i need to get up for class in the morning. i'll try to post a song of the day tomorrow too. its an old school song. i heard it today on my way to work and i sang every word. i'll give u guys a hint: uni brow lol

peace&love