writers block

hey everyone!!1



how's your weekend going? mine has been really relaxing and very chill. i didn't go anywhere today and i liked that. i've gone out every weekend this past month and i enjoyed my fun, but sometimes its good to just stay at home. although next week i'm suppose to be hangin out with a friend but i'm havin mixed thoughts about going. he's an old friend, one of the few people i am still in contact with since i started college, but i will keep u guys posted.


*side note:i wish i knew how to put a music player on my blog so i could play music while u guys read my posts. but just to give u guys a visual i'm listening to Carl Thomas first album, "Giving You All My Love"*


back to the blog


i think i know what was preventing me from bloggin for so long. lack of inspiration. i had plenty to write about(LOTS) but i just didn't feel like the things that were going on was something that i needed to write about. well some of it was worth it, but i just didn't want to give that situation more power than it had, but in actuality i was by not talkin about it and lettin it build. well last night i had a talk with the big homie and he pretty much told me what i needed to hear. as u all already know, i have been going through this back and forth battle with my ex for months now and i think that its finally dead. like she did something the other day and it really pissed me off and at that moment, i said enough is enough with this. she knows what she's doin when she says(well text rather) the things she says. it was really random and when i tried to ask her about it, she replied"she shouldn't have sent me that message and that it wasn't her place to say what it is that she thinks that i am doing wrong." ok thats all fine and dandy, but don't initiate the conversation and then come back like oh i don't wanna talk about it,BUT something told me to check her twitter and sure enough, i found what i was lookin for. she can talk about me on there, but she can't tell me what it is thats bothering her. now u would think after EVERYTHING that we have been through, everything that i have recently helped her out with, she would have no problem at all. i mean, she has never been shy about speakin her mind, but today, she don't wanna talk??? if u guys knew what all i have done for her recently, u all would think that i was crazy for doing it. but hey, when u care about someone when they are at their lowest, u wanna help them. but all that is over with. whatever problem she has will be just that...hers. i'm not bitter or angry about it, its just not my battle.