wassup everyone! how was your weekend?
first i want to say thank you to everyone that commented and tweeted me on my 100th post. again i thank EVRYONE that has helped my growth. and shoutout to my new blog followers. feel free to comment and say whatever you want! this is an open community lol so with that said, lets get into things!......
i had a great weekend! i chilled with my friends saw a movie (that i'm gonna have to see again because i fell asleep on it lol) and i relaxed briefly as well. i also bumped into my FIRST girlfriend this weekend. we ended up talkin longer than i thought that night and i wasn't able to go bowling grrrrrr lol but it was fun catching up with her and i wish her the best...... i have a least 4 blogs that i haven't posted yet. i've been thinkin about some things in my life and i want to change them, but i don't think i need to post what i've written. sometimes its good to just do things without actually sayin it.
the other night my ex called me and we talked without arguing.....*pause*...... everyone that has had something to say about me talkin to her, well, i really don't care what u think honestly. it was a phone call. i have been having dreams about her prior to the call and i had 2 more after the conversation. they weren't bad dreams or dreams that were nasty, they were just dreams. although one of them, was about us "talking". it was kinda like a continuation from a dream i had a long time ago. but the thought of her and i gettin back together has NEVER came across my mind on a conscious level. some people say why are u even talkin to her or you're gonna let her start stuff with you again. and to you all i again say #o_O AND I'M A GROWN ASS MAN! i can do what i want. like i said a long time ago, a friendship with her wouldn't be that bad. it just would be something that progresses with time. i'm happy where i am and so is she. you can't hold grudges forever people. don't get bitter, get better...
speaking of being happy, i'm thinkin about taking a break from "dating" i don't want to be bothered with it right now. granted if the right one comes along we'll discuss things, but for now, i have YET to meet anyone thats worth more than a hello/goodbye conversation. i want to start focusing on bigger and better things for my life. after i graduate i want to travel. i want to just pack a bag or 2, hop on a plane and fly to london, greece, and the rest of europe. i'm going to 25 in less than 2 months and before i start "settling down" there are things that i want to do and see. and until that time comes, i'm thinking about not having sex again. granted i've had sex with 2 women this year, but i'm bored with it. i hate having sex with someone and not having a feeling afterward. not saying i wanna spoon all night, but i just want it to mean something. my emotions are all over the place today for some reason lol but anywho, thats where i stand on sex, relationships, and everything else.
oh and i'll prolly end my hiphop fast in the next few weeks or so. i think all this r&b is starting to get to me lol but if you all have any suggestions about music or artist that i should listen to, feel free to let me know. so thats all i have to say for now, bout to get ready and head to work in a bit. i may post something else tonight i don't have ish else to do.
peace and love ya'll
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