not sure about this

whenever i feel like something good is about to happened reality comes and slaps me in the face. this past weekend was nice. i enjoyed myself. but i think i jumped the gun on the situation. i was thinking that by her visiting would help us get closer and help us get on the path to becoming relationship ready. well to my surprise, it did everything but THAT. sometimes i think that people confuse their feelings and emotions with feelings from the past. u have to be ready to let go of things in order to move on. my friend hadn't. she's not at that point in her life where she can. and there is nothing wrong with that. i wish her the best the luck. i know that she had fun this weekend and that she will never forget it. neither will i. so here i am again. back at square one. but i'm not sad tho. i'm actually proud of myself for handling this the way that i have. the old me would have said some things that were hurtful but that wouldn't solve anything. Maturity #getsome

peace&love