its not my fault lol

so i haven't been able to blog in almost a month because of my internet connection, but i'm back!!! i missed you guys! how have you all been?

the last time i talked to you guys, i was at a really low place in my life and i didn't really see signs of getting better, but i'm actually doing a lot better. i'm no longer "dating" the young lady that i was dating. it's for the best though. i was a little down about it, but i kinda knew it wasn't going to work in the long run. we had too many different opinions on things. sometimes i feel a little down but for the most part i'm ok with it. i'm kinda use to my relationships not working out to be honest. i was planning on moving to new york this summer, but i don't think its going to happen. my job really low blowed me on the transfer, but they made up for it with a nice raise so, i'm going to save up my money and finish school and then focus on moving. my grandmother isn't really feeling well either. she had a stroke a few weeks ago and its not looking like she is getting any better. i don't want to leave with her sick like this. my dads mom passed back in 04 and i felt like i didn't spend as much time and call her like i should have. so i kinda feel like this is my chance to make up from her, with my grams thats sick now. its always the person at the funeral that acts a fool because they didnt do what they should have while their loved one was living so they act all extra at the funeral and i'm be damned if that person is me.

today i found out something about someone that i thought was a good person, but they aren't as cool as i thought they were. it really made me mad because they said some things about a close friend of mine that i didn't agree with. now its not my place to say anything but it just really grinds my gears when things like that happen. i'm suppose to be seeing an old friend this weekend i think. i'm going to find out tomorrow if i will or not, but i'm a little excited to see her though. its been a long time since we hung out so i'm sure we will have fun....

well thats all for now, i'll be back to write more this sunday
peace&love