As a child you never really know what your life will like as an adult. you don't think about bills, the realistic vision of having a family of your own and the responsibilities that go into place. i was fortunate enough as a child to live in a good environment and grow up to have good values and morals. i know first hand what its like to experience the climb from the bottom to the top to achieve the "American dream". i struggled with my father and my mother during their divorce. when one parent was doing well, the other, not so much. it wasn't til recent years that both sides were finally living comfortably. My father struggled to find his place in life and after 54 yrs of living he's finally found his place. My mother on the other hand, suffered in marriage to my step father for almost 20 yrs that she didn't want to be apart of for the last 10 yrs of the marriage. she's JUST now finally 100% happy. and i say that to say this, i don't know where my life is going to take me. i'm at the point in my life where if i choose option A, i go here. if i choose option B, i go there. i'm confident that i will make the right choices, but i don't want to have to go through hitting rock bottom in order to get to the "HAPPY" place in my life. Today was a real eye opening day for me because i felt the closing walls of reality get THAT much closer. I'm not living in denial or anything like that, but i'm just not happy. not 100%. i really feel like i'm rambling, but i'm really not. i know someone out there knows what i'm trying to say.
peace&love
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