Hey guys! I’m a little bored waiting for time to go by so I can go to work, so I decided to make a quick post and let you all know how my night went.....
Last night was my cousin’s birthday party at this restaurant called happy mexican. I went there one other time with my ex, way back in July I believe, so I knew that I was gonna have a good time……WRONG. We went to the one downtown and we waited for almost 2hrs to get a seat and by the time we sat down the waiter told us that the kitchen was about to close so we were all pissed but we still ordered something to eat so it was ok. As more and more people showed up, I realized that I was in for a long night. I don’t know if I ever told you all but my cousin plays for the OTHER team so of course everyone there did as well. Don’t get me wrong I’m comfortable in my own skin but when you are clearly…...what’s the word I’m lookin for…….outnumbered….. It can be a little uncomfortable. So luckily for me I ended up sitting next to this girl that wasn’t gay and we ended up having a good time. I hadn’t seen her since her car accident and she’s recovered well from it. I’ll have to tell you all the background on her and I some other time. It’s quite pathetic as my friends would put it Lol BUT anywho, so of course I had a beer with my meal and it was good. I ordered a chicken quesadilla. After I finished my food, I had some of this drink that my cousin had and it was STRONG!! It didn’t get me drunk but I was definitely feeling it. And it was at the moment that I realized that getting drunk is something that I will not be doing anytime soon. There were these 2 grown ass men there that were sooo loud it soon became uncomfortable to be around them and I kept thinking that I hope I don’t sound and look like that when I’m drunk. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that I frown at everyone that gets drunk because that’s not what I’m saying. I believe that there is a time and a place for it. If I’m around friends at their apt or at my house, yeah I may put a few back, but I’m not going out in public and getting that drunk. Granted there will be exceptions but every time I go out? No. There comes a time when you have to take responsibility for your actions and start holding yourself accountable. There’s this guy that I know, and every time I see him when we go out, he’s’ always drunk. He’s a good guy, but he just drinks waaay too much. I’m not tryin to offend any of my friends that drink a lot but we have to start protecting our bodies. We are getting older. We are all at the mid-way point (25 or older) in our young lives and we have to watch the things we do. Same as smoking (you know who u are :-)). Ok so now I feel like I’m preaching. BACK TO THE DINNER……… so after we ate we were all supposed to go to this club, I wanted to go but I didn’t feel like driving to the club, so I went home and went to bed instead. So that was my night. Pretty dang exciting right? Lol
Peace&love
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
took a few days off
so i took a little break from blogging these past few days because of 2 reasons. 1) i was lazy 2)i wanted to have more to talk about. let me take number 1 back. i wasn't lazy i was hoping to have heard from my interview the other day and i was gonna post a great epic monumental post lol but thats not going to happen yet... i got a call back today and she is faxing my information today because she lost my application. NAGL!! but i'm stayin positive and praying that i get this job. they are doing my background checks and i think they will be doing my reference calls as well. so i'm thinkin i got it because i don't have a record and i put good people down for my references.
the past few weeks i've been having trouble sleeping at night and having really weird dreams. i'll wake up at 4am EVERY night on the dot. and my dreams are either about a relationship issue or something really stranger or a mixture of both. and its funny because i swear i think that i'm not dreaming it and then i wake up. everything that i possibly thought about or wanted to change it was in the dream(s) but last night i didn't have problems sleeping at all. i slept through the night and didn't any problems. idk if its just because there was so much on my mind or what.
the other night i planned on going to this fashion show, but my job had other plans for me. i was just waking up from a nap and i got the call. granted i was pissed but the mission that was given me was great experience for me. but in the process i hurt my friend by not making it to the fashion show. every one that went said that it was great show and i really missed out. i hate that i missed it but duty calls sometimes.
as for my hair and facial hair goes....its still going. by thanksgiving you all will see it. i was going to post some pics up but i'd rather wait until its finished before i post any and i will let you all decide what looks better, the low cut or the curly fro and beard. tonight i'm going to my cousins bday party and i'm excited because its been a loong time since i actually went anywhere. so good times tonight and then its back to business as usual for the kid. well thats all i have for now i'll be back later, but if i don't, have a great weekend and be safe out there!
peace&love
the past few weeks i've been having trouble sleeping at night and having really weird dreams. i'll wake up at 4am EVERY night on the dot. and my dreams are either about a relationship issue or something really stranger or a mixture of both. and its funny because i swear i think that i'm not dreaming it and then i wake up. everything that i possibly thought about or wanted to change it was in the dream(s) but last night i didn't have problems sleeping at all. i slept through the night and didn't any problems. idk if its just because there was so much on my mind or what.
the other night i planned on going to this fashion show, but my job had other plans for me. i was just waking up from a nap and i got the call. granted i was pissed but the mission that was given me was great experience for me. but in the process i hurt my friend by not making it to the fashion show. every one that went said that it was great show and i really missed out. i hate that i missed it but duty calls sometimes.
as for my hair and facial hair goes....its still going. by thanksgiving you all will see it. i was going to post some pics up but i'd rather wait until its finished before i post any and i will let you all decide what looks better, the low cut or the curly fro and beard. tonight i'm going to my cousins bday party and i'm excited because its been a loong time since i actually went anywhere. so good times tonight and then its back to business as usual for the kid. well thats all i have for now i'll be back later, but if i don't, have a great weekend and be safe out there!
peace&love
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
hey guys.....
i'm wide awake tonight because i'm really nervous about my interview tomorrow. i really want this job. i want it because it could potentially be the boost i need to get myself going and progressing to the next level. the way i feel about things is that i can only go up from here and thats what i intend to do....
tonight i made a phone and i think that it was the best thing that i could have done for my current relationship woes. it was brought to my attention that by forcing something would be tryint to do things the aaron way and not the right way. and i......feel.....i feel like the right decision was made. i really do have to do things differently. its really starting to sink in for me. the words have to stop being said and they have to start doing. (by they i mean me) so i'm feeling ok. its day 2 and am making the right moves.
thats all i have for now, hopefully the next time you all here from me, i will have a new job!
peace&love
i'm wide awake tonight because i'm really nervous about my interview tomorrow. i really want this job. i want it because it could potentially be the boost i need to get myself going and progressing to the next level. the way i feel about things is that i can only go up from here and thats what i intend to do....
tonight i made a phone and i think that it was the best thing that i could have done for my current relationship woes. it was brought to my attention that by forcing something would be tryint to do things the aaron way and not the right way. and i......feel.....i feel like the right decision was made. i really do have to do things differently. its really starting to sink in for me. the words have to stop being said and they have to start doing. (by they i mean me) so i'm feeling ok. its day 2 and am making the right moves.
thats all i have for now, hopefully the next time you all here from me, i will have a new job!
peace&love
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
reaching out, riri and cb, my beard and song of the day
hey guys!
how are you all doing this morning? class is cancelled so i got some breakfast and decided to write...well lets get into it!
so last night, i decided to reach out to an old friend that i hadn't talked to in a while. i had been dreaming about this person for a while now(not like that lol) and it was just eating at me that we hadn't talked. i no longer have this persons number so there is no way for me to even contact them and we aren't friends on facebook or twitter so i just looked their name up and and i found them. we ended things on a bad note and i just wanted to know how they were doing. so i sent the message. didn't expect a reply but to my surprise i got one within minutes of sending it. my friend is doing very well. living in a different country and is enjoying every moment of it. just thinkin about my friend makes me smile because they deserve all happiness and success. i'm truly proud. it inspires me too, because if they can do it so can i.
lets see...what else........
everyone has been talkin about rihanna and chris brown with the recent interviews that they did. i honestly have mixed emotions about this because i've been in situations(not anywhere remotely close to that) that i wish that i could take back. i feel for her and her family. no one should ever have to experience that and chris had no right putting his hands on her. period. no man should that. i think that the reason that chris isn't speaking about it in detail like riri has because he doesn't have a reason to say why he beat her. like if i beat a girl up and she was coming out saying this and that about what happened, and i had a side to speak on, i would speak so loud they'd be tellin the kid to shut up. but chris doesn't have a side because he was wrong and there is no excuse and there is nothing for him to say. i think that he could flip this and actually change his image if he took this more seriously, was more open about it and actually spoke out about domestic violence. become a spokesperson for it and actually take responsibility for what transpired and not act like it wasn't a big deal( thats the feeling i get whenever i hear him speak) everyone is sayin its great timing for rihanna since her album is coming out and that its gonna boost her sales but i don't really care about that stuff. say what you want baby girl about it and move on with your life. i give her MAJOR PROPS for saying eff love. i know that was tough, as many times as i've said it, its harder than it looks/sounds.
so i've been tryin to grow a beard for about 2-3 weeks now and its not lookin the way i want it to. lol my hair is sooooooooo difficult. i don't have normal "good" black hair. i have hair that changes texture if it gets thick so doing the normal things that most men do i can't do because i'll look like an arab with a dark tan lol
todays song of the day is my new favorite singer Michael Buble. this song reminds me of James Bond opening credits lol enjoy!
how are you all doing this morning? class is cancelled so i got some breakfast and decided to write...well lets get into it!
so last night, i decided to reach out to an old friend that i hadn't talked to in a while. i had been dreaming about this person for a while now(not like that lol) and it was just eating at me that we hadn't talked. i no longer have this persons number so there is no way for me to even contact them and we aren't friends on facebook or twitter so i just looked their name up and and i found them. we ended things on a bad note and i just wanted to know how they were doing. so i sent the message. didn't expect a reply but to my surprise i got one within minutes of sending it. my friend is doing very well. living in a different country and is enjoying every moment of it. just thinkin about my friend makes me smile because they deserve all happiness and success. i'm truly proud. it inspires me too, because if they can do it so can i.
lets see...what else........
everyone has been talkin about rihanna and chris brown with the recent interviews that they did. i honestly have mixed emotions about this because i've been in situations(not anywhere remotely close to that) that i wish that i could take back. i feel for her and her family. no one should ever have to experience that and chris had no right putting his hands on her. period. no man should that. i think that the reason that chris isn't speaking about it in detail like riri has because he doesn't have a reason to say why he beat her. like if i beat a girl up and she was coming out saying this and that about what happened, and i had a side to speak on, i would speak so loud they'd be tellin the kid to shut up. but chris doesn't have a side because he was wrong and there is no excuse and there is nothing for him to say. i think that he could flip this and actually change his image if he took this more seriously, was more open about it and actually spoke out about domestic violence. become a spokesperson for it and actually take responsibility for what transpired and not act like it wasn't a big deal( thats the feeling i get whenever i hear him speak) everyone is sayin its great timing for rihanna since her album is coming out and that its gonna boost her sales but i don't really care about that stuff. say what you want baby girl about it and move on with your life. i give her MAJOR PROPS for saying eff love. i know that was tough, as many times as i've said it, its harder than it looks/sounds.
so i've been tryin to grow a beard for about 2-3 weeks now and its not lookin the way i want it to. lol my hair is sooooooooo difficult. i don't have normal "good" black hair. i have hair that changes texture if it gets thick so doing the normal things that most men do i can't do because i'll look like an arab with a dark tan lol
todays song of the day is my new favorite singer Michael Buble. this song reminds me of James Bond opening credits lol enjoy!
Monday, November 9, 2009
new followers, my day, and peace
wassup folks!!!
how was your day?
first i'd like to say hello to my new followers! feel free to comment (some have already done so lol) and say whatever u want as long as its not offensive or anything....well i take that back say what you want. we are all grown here. lol and that brings me to my next point. a few of my tweeple have started blogs of their own because of me and my blog. they thought that they couldn't get into it and they bloggin more times a day than me lol keep up the good work
*side note* if you like jazz and real chll music get MICHEAL BUBLE ALBUM. CRAZY!
today i had a good day. it was drama free for the most part and i got a lot done today. i got up and applied to some places before class and in between class today. i decided that i would blog more during this process so that i can actually see the change happening. i also want to apologize if i came off a little strong this morning. its just i'm tired of the way things are going in my life and i HAVE to change them.
i wanted to rant a little but its not even worth it anymore. if you keep your peace, they can't do anything but respect it and if they don't, so what! who cares. DO YOU MY FOLLOWERS. DO YOU!!!
and with that said, you all have a good night. i'm bout to finish listening to this Michael Buble and get something to eat and finish working on some financial plans.
peace&love
how was your day?
first i'd like to say hello to my new followers! feel free to comment (some have already done so lol) and say whatever u want as long as its not offensive or anything....well i take that back say what you want. we are all grown here. lol and that brings me to my next point. a few of my tweeple have started blogs of their own because of me and my blog. they thought that they couldn't get into it and they bloggin more times a day than me lol keep up the good work
*side note* if you like jazz and real chll music get MICHEAL BUBLE ALBUM. CRAZY!
today i had a good day. it was drama free for the most part and i got a lot done today. i got up and applied to some places before class and in between class today. i decided that i would blog more during this process so that i can actually see the change happening. i also want to apologize if i came off a little strong this morning. its just i'm tired of the way things are going in my life and i HAVE to change them.
i wanted to rant a little but its not even worth it anymore. if you keep your peace, they can't do anything but respect it and if they don't, so what! who cares. DO YOU MY FOLLOWERS. DO YOU!!!
and with that said, you all have a good night. i'm bout to finish listening to this Michael Buble and get something to eat and finish working on some financial plans.
peace&love
empire state of mind.
so late last night i had a talk with someone and it really hit close to home. everything was said, i already knew i had to do. there were points that were very painful but true. this isn't a post about me saying what i'm going to do, its just me doing me. taking care of aaron is my focus. one thing that i wasn't able to say last night was that, i've always put other people ahead of aaron's responsibilities. i'm a giving person its just how i've always been. i make sure that you are ok before myself and i can no longer do that. i hate to say this but i'm gonna have to be "aaron the asshole" for a while until i get back on my feet. and by that i mean i'm ignoring every person that isn't here to help or bring something positive to my life. and honestly i don't want your help either. it just is what it is. i deleted mad numbers last night. if you call and i ask who is this, its not because i don't like you or i'm removing you out of my life, well i slick am, but i just can't worry about other people right now. i just have to do the best thing for me and my future. i'm almost 25 and i have nothing to show for it. this isn't a feel sorry for aaron day or anything it just is what it is. i want to be successful just like everyone else. i've never done things the "normal way or the right way" i've always done it the aaron way and i can't do that anymore. growing up everything was so easy for me. i never had to work hard for anything and up until now, thats how its been. life is hard because of things that you neglect to do. if you don't take care of business it will come back to haunt you. trust the kid on this one, i know what i'm talkin about. today marks a new day in my life and i hope that this is the right way for me to go. again, i'm not gonna be some stuck up guy or anything, just don't step to me with mess. i don't have time for it.
thats all i got folks. i need to get ready for class......
peace&love
thats all i got folks. i need to get ready for class......
peace&love
Sunday, November 8, 2009
my escape
so i'm supposed to be doing this paper but i got side tracked by reading blogs and watchin this game. although i don't really care for either team, i just want dallas to lose. i eff'n hate the cowboys. sorry big homie but i just don't like them. #kanyeshrug
but anywho back to my point.....oh yeah the blogs. i love reading good blogs. they entertain me. they're sexual and put us( the readers) in a fantasy world that we can only dream of living.they say things that i want to say but i'm too scared to say, so i read them and i say "me too!! or yeah i want that to happen" to everything that they write. however, i'm at the point where i feel like i'm reading too many female written blogs. don't get me wrong ladies, u all keep me laughin and give me nice hints for my future relationship(God please send me that girl asap!! lol) i want to read more male blogs that say the things that these women are saying/doing but from our point of view. other than myself, and my homie, i don't know of any good male bloggers. i'm not talkin bout the ones that discuss fashion. those are cool but i can only take so much of that. i need some real macho type shit. like stuff i can relate to. if any of my readers know of any, hit the kid up and send me the link.
but anywho back to my point.....oh yeah the blogs. i love reading good blogs. they entertain me. they're sexual and put us( the readers) in a fantasy world that we can only dream of living.they say things that i want to say but i'm too scared to say, so i read them and i say "me too!! or yeah i want that to happen" to everything that they write. however, i'm at the point where i feel like i'm reading too many female written blogs. don't get me wrong ladies, u all keep me laughin and give me nice hints for my future relationship(God please send me that girl asap!! lol) i want to read more male blogs that say the things that these women are saying/doing but from our point of view. other than myself, and my homie, i don't know of any good male bloggers. i'm not talkin bout the ones that discuss fashion. those are cool but i can only take so much of that. i need some real macho type shit. like stuff i can relate to. if any of my readers know of any, hit the kid up and send me the link.
no sex, interview, and rambling
HEY!!!!
So, like I said this morning on twitter, I was gonna blog today. I woke up this morning feeling the urge to write. so here I am, finally after being with my cousins after church for 5 hours , I finally made it home.
*side note* if u haven’t heard Ryan Leslie new album check it out. Its really good
So guys I don’t know if I told you all, but I haven’t had sex since july and its really starting to get to me. I mean I’m not addicted or anything like that, but the kid REALLY is starting to feel the pressure. There’s a blog that I follow that I can only read during certain times because this writer has the kid feelin like jodeci lol. I told myself that I want to wait until I get into a relationship before I “end the streak” and it would be at least a month into the relationship that would want to think about doing it. Normally sex isn’t a big thing to me, because it always came with easy for me. I’d meet a girl and within days we’d be in the sheets. Even the young lady that I was dating this summer, whom I didn’t see myself being sexually active with until at least a month or longer within us dating, took all of 4 days I think before I had sex with her. But I think that the “pressure” is catching up like karma lol how that makes sense, idk but you all know what I mean.
Ohhhhhh yeah!!!!!
I got a call back for a job interview this Wednesday afternoon. I don’t want to say where yet because I don’t want to jinx it, but I will say this, its at a store that you would LEAST expect me to work at. I’m excited because I was really starting to get a little down about things and it was starting to show in my attitude……….. Last week in general was a bad week for me period. I lost my “friendship” and it hurt. I can’t cry about it now, just learn, own up to my mistakes and keep going. Speaking of which, I made my page on twitter private again. I have to stop letting randoms get so close to me. They have no place in my life.
This weekend I was supposed to go out and try to get my mind off things but I didn’t do anything this weekend. People cancelled and plans fell through, so I did nothing but think........ And think........and think........hopefully when I get the chance to do things, this time I won’t have to think, I will just do. I’m starting to ramble so I’m gonna stop now, plus the Giants are struggling lol gotta pay more attention to the game. I’ll be back later.
Peace and Love
So, like I said this morning on twitter, I was gonna blog today. I woke up this morning feeling the urge to write. so here I am, finally after being with my cousins after church for 5 hours , I finally made it home.
*side note* if u haven’t heard Ryan Leslie new album check it out. Its really good
So guys I don’t know if I told you all, but I haven’t had sex since july and its really starting to get to me. I mean I’m not addicted or anything like that, but the kid REALLY is starting to feel the pressure. There’s a blog that I follow that I can only read during certain times because this writer has the kid feelin like jodeci lol. I told myself that I want to wait until I get into a relationship before I “end the streak” and it would be at least a month into the relationship that would want to think about doing it. Normally sex isn’t a big thing to me, because it always came with easy for me. I’d meet a girl and within days we’d be in the sheets. Even the young lady that I was dating this summer, whom I didn’t see myself being sexually active with until at least a month or longer within us dating, took all of 4 days I think before I had sex with her. But I think that the “pressure” is catching up like karma lol how that makes sense, idk but you all know what I mean.
Ohhhhhh yeah!!!!!
I got a call back for a job interview this Wednesday afternoon. I don’t want to say where yet because I don’t want to jinx it, but I will say this, its at a store that you would LEAST expect me to work at. I’m excited because I was really starting to get a little down about things and it was starting to show in my attitude……….. Last week in general was a bad week for me period. I lost my “friendship” and it hurt. I can’t cry about it now, just learn, own up to my mistakes and keep going. Speaking of which, I made my page on twitter private again. I have to stop letting randoms get so close to me. They have no place in my life.
This weekend I was supposed to go out and try to get my mind off things but I didn’t do anything this weekend. People cancelled and plans fell through, so I did nothing but think........ And think........and think........hopefully when I get the chance to do things, this time I won’t have to think, I will just do. I’m starting to ramble so I’m gonna stop now, plus the Giants are struggling lol gotta pay more attention to the game. I’ll be back later.
Peace and Love
Friday, November 6, 2009
wake up to poop!
What’s good everyone! It’s the weekend!!!
So I’m up mad early today because of my dumb ass and my dog‘s poopy ass! So I wake up at like 6 something this morning to see my dogs head at the edge of my bed. I look to a little further and I see 2 piles of grown man type poop on the floor. So I jump up and go clean it up.*mind you, I’m half sleep* I go to the bathroom and I grab some paper towels (you guys can see where this is going right) and start picking up the poop and cleaning my carpet. Well like a dumb ass, I drop the poop and the paper towels in the toilet and proceed to flush………………WATER GOES EVERYWHERE!! So now I’m like WTF am I gonna do??? THEN I HEAR WATER HITTING THE FLOOR……..DOWNSTAIRS!!!!!!!!!!
So I turn the toilet off and run downstairs to see the damage. it was coming out of the light fixture in the kitchen. I get a bucket to catch the water (*side note* my dog is running full speed around the house like a freakin idiot!!!) The water stops and I look at the damage. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was gonna be. There’s a small water spot on the ceiling and the rug in the kitchen is wet. I put the rug outside to dry off and I got all the water off the floor in the bathroom upstairs. Luckily the pipes didn’t back up and burst or anything. So I lucked out on that. And ALL this happened before 8am!!!! So I’ve had a great morning and now my dog is sitting here sleeping like nothing happened. Don’t you just love your pets?????(Chris rock annoying voice sound)
So I finally have an off weekend and I hope to get a few things done. I wanted to go to Nashville for TSU homecoming but I don’t have the funds and the person that I usually stay with is now married and I don’t think her husband would allow that #kanyeshrug. So I’m gonna stay here do what I need to do. First I have a paper that I need to do so I will knock that out tomorrow. 2nd, I want to go see that new movie precious too. I have to get back in single guy, not dating anyone in the foreseeable future mode so I will go check that out either Saturday or Sunday afternoon so I can get in for under $100. Damn movies are expensive SMH. I might even cook this weekend too! We’ll see. Oh and my homeboy is having a party tonight so I will check that out after I get off tonight. Hey, if it’s free, it’s for me! Lol
I told myself that I was gonna spare my readers of the constant writing about things happening with my ex. I have a feeling that it’s gonna be a long time before anything new develops with that, whether it be positive or negative so I’m just gonna lay off it. Whatever happens happens. That’s all I can say about that. However, having a female companion in the right situation always makes things THAT much better.
Oh and I think I will be getting another job soon. Hopefully as early as next week. I’m gonna see if an old manager will give the kid a job and I’m gonna apply to watch old people at night and I hear they make good money. I just found out that I got looked over Yet again with my current employer and its really starting to get on my nerves. I’ve been here the longest and I feel like it’s my time. Not displaying bitchassness of anything but it is, what it is……..
Well that’s all the kid has for now, I will be back Sunday or Monday for the weekend update or if anything happens, I’ll be back sooner. Hope you all have a safe and great weekend!
Peace&Love
So I’m up mad early today because of my dumb ass and my dog‘s poopy ass! So I wake up at like 6 something this morning to see my dogs head at the edge of my bed. I look to a little further and I see 2 piles of grown man type poop on the floor. So I jump up and go clean it up.*mind you, I’m half sleep* I go to the bathroom and I grab some paper towels (you guys can see where this is going right) and start picking up the poop and cleaning my carpet. Well like a dumb ass, I drop the poop and the paper towels in the toilet and proceed to flush………………WATER GOES EVERYWHERE!! So now I’m like WTF am I gonna do??? THEN I HEAR WATER HITTING THE FLOOR……..DOWNSTAIRS!!!!!!!!!!
So I turn the toilet off and run downstairs to see the damage. it was coming out of the light fixture in the kitchen. I get a bucket to catch the water (*side note* my dog is running full speed around the house like a freakin idiot!!!) The water stops and I look at the damage. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was gonna be. There’s a small water spot on the ceiling and the rug in the kitchen is wet. I put the rug outside to dry off and I got all the water off the floor in the bathroom upstairs. Luckily the pipes didn’t back up and burst or anything. So I lucked out on that. And ALL this happened before 8am!!!! So I’ve had a great morning and now my dog is sitting here sleeping like nothing happened. Don’t you just love your pets?????(Chris rock annoying voice sound)
So I finally have an off weekend and I hope to get a few things done. I wanted to go to Nashville for TSU homecoming but I don’t have the funds and the person that I usually stay with is now married and I don’t think her husband would allow that #kanyeshrug. So I’m gonna stay here do what I need to do. First I have a paper that I need to do so I will knock that out tomorrow. 2nd, I want to go see that new movie precious too. I have to get back in single guy, not dating anyone in the foreseeable future mode so I will go check that out either Saturday or Sunday afternoon so I can get in for under $100. Damn movies are expensive SMH. I might even cook this weekend too! We’ll see. Oh and my homeboy is having a party tonight so I will check that out after I get off tonight. Hey, if it’s free, it’s for me! Lol
I told myself that I was gonna spare my readers of the constant writing about things happening with my ex. I have a feeling that it’s gonna be a long time before anything new develops with that, whether it be positive or negative so I’m just gonna lay off it. Whatever happens happens. That’s all I can say about that. However, having a female companion in the right situation always makes things THAT much better.
Oh and I think I will be getting another job soon. Hopefully as early as next week. I’m gonna see if an old manager will give the kid a job and I’m gonna apply to watch old people at night and I hear they make good money. I just found out that I got looked over Yet again with my current employer and its really starting to get on my nerves. I’ve been here the longest and I feel like it’s my time. Not displaying bitchassness of anything but it is, what it is……..
Well that’s all the kid has for now, I will be back Sunday or Monday for the weekend update or if anything happens, I’ll be back sooner. Hope you all have a safe and great weekend!
Peace&Love
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
last night and song of the day
sup! (jay-z voice)
so last night after i posted that blog, got on twitter and SPAZZED!!! i shouldn't have taken it there, but i just had to get it off my chest. maybe i should have blogged about it instead, but sometimes u have to spaz every now and then. when i woke up this mmorning, i didn't feel bad about it because its over with, but it won't happen again.
sooooo in other news.......
i don't think i told u guys but the kid is going to be moving soon. where i'm going i don't know yet but i have less than 2 months to find out where. my mom told me that she was moving and wasn't gettin a place big enough for me. for those that don't know my background, i just recently moved back home 2 months ago and i have dreaded it. about two weeks ago almost she and i had a big fall out and things are still rocky in the house. i've been talkin to the homie and he's given me good advise on things to do and where to look. sometimes it's good to have someone from the outside lookin in help you out. u can over look things. i have complete confidence that i will land on my feet, i just hope i don't break anything.
i haven't done a song of the day in a minute so i guess i can have one today. i've been listening to stevie wonder today so here is one of my faves. hope u all enjoy
peace&love
so last night after i posted that blog, got on twitter and SPAZZED!!! i shouldn't have taken it there, but i just had to get it off my chest. maybe i should have blogged about it instead, but sometimes u have to spaz every now and then. when i woke up this mmorning, i didn't feel bad about it because its over with, but it won't happen again.
sooooo in other news.......
i don't think i told u guys but the kid is going to be moving soon. where i'm going i don't know yet but i have less than 2 months to find out where. my mom told me that she was moving and wasn't gettin a place big enough for me. for those that don't know my background, i just recently moved back home 2 months ago and i have dreaded it. about two weeks ago almost she and i had a big fall out and things are still rocky in the house. i've been talkin to the homie and he's given me good advise on things to do and where to look. sometimes it's good to have someone from the outside lookin in help you out. u can over look things. i have complete confidence that i will land on my feet, i just hope i don't break anything.
i haven't done a song of the day in a minute so i guess i can have one today. i've been listening to stevie wonder today so here is one of my faves. hope u all enjoy
peace&love
Monday, November 2, 2009
Wassup everyone!!
How was your week/weekend? I had a great post that I wanted to publish but I didn’t and I’m kinda glad I didn’t because it would have contradicted what I am gonna say tonight. So I guess here it goes….
Today after a back and forth battle for the past few days, my ex and I called it quits today and I’m feeling “different” about it. Honestly I had been thinking about doing this for a few days now but I wanted to make sure what I was feeling was right. I talked to a few people about it, a close friend of mine who is married and they basically said that I should have done it a long time ago when she came back into the picture. When my ex came back it thru me for a loop because of how much she said she was over me and didn’t want to be with me. I tried very hard to get her back but each time I brought it up, she ALWAYS turned me down so for it to happen I was kinda confused yet happy at the same time. Everything was cool at first but like before, it got bad. She hit a rough situation and I was there for her more than I thought that I was going to be. I enjoyed it. I liked her needing my help and I enjoyed helping her. She was my heart and I wanted only to be there for her. But I confused reality with fantasy.
I’ve tried hard to date other girls. But I just didn’t feel comfortable. Feeling like if I got too serious then she would come back, well this past time I learned that I can only look out for Aaron. There were a lot of things that I want to say but I have to keep certain things personal, but I will say this….affection goes a long way, so Show it. Men and women like it both equally. And with that said……… here I am……….alone……..again. I’m not lonely or sad. I just feel blank. That’s my time folks……..
Peace and Love.
How was your week/weekend? I had a great post that I wanted to publish but I didn’t and I’m kinda glad I didn’t because it would have contradicted what I am gonna say tonight. So I guess here it goes….
Today after a back and forth battle for the past few days, my ex and I called it quits today and I’m feeling “different” about it. Honestly I had been thinking about doing this for a few days now but I wanted to make sure what I was feeling was right. I talked to a few people about it, a close friend of mine who is married and they basically said that I should have done it a long time ago when she came back into the picture. When my ex came back it thru me for a loop because of how much she said she was over me and didn’t want to be with me. I tried very hard to get her back but each time I brought it up, she ALWAYS turned me down so for it to happen I was kinda confused yet happy at the same time. Everything was cool at first but like before, it got bad. She hit a rough situation and I was there for her more than I thought that I was going to be. I enjoyed it. I liked her needing my help and I enjoyed helping her. She was my heart and I wanted only to be there for her. But I confused reality with fantasy.
I’ve tried hard to date other girls. But I just didn’t feel comfortable. Feeling like if I got too serious then she would come back, well this past time I learned that I can only look out for Aaron. There were a lot of things that I want to say but I have to keep certain things personal, but I will say this….affection goes a long way, so Show it. Men and women like it both equally. And with that said……… here I am……….alone……..again. I’m not lonely or sad. I just feel blank. That’s my time folks……..
Peace and Love.
Friday, October 23, 2009
houston trip, intervention, and gambling
wassup everyone!
So, i'm back from houston and i hate it already. lol memphis is so boring and dead. i had a great time visiting my family. i had a long talk with my pops. he's getting ready to open his own business in January. he took me by his office and i can't wait for him to get it running. he deserves this and i am so proud of him. he's on this "i'm gettin older and i want to leave something to u guys when its my time" thing. i mean i get where he is coming from but i don't want to think about it. pops is 53. he's got a lot years left.
but anywho....
Pops really wants me to move out there. we went and looked a few schools in the Houston area. i liked them all, but after thinking and discussing it with michelle
(stepmom) we came to the conclusion that a move out there isn't whats best. really i said it, but she cosigned. so i decided that the best option now for me is to focus on graduating and going to a grad school that is in the area(s) that my major is needed most. mainly schools on the east coast and also one school in the south. right now i'm lookin at John Jay in NYC. I originally said that i wanted to move back to the east coast after i graduated but then i started thinking about if i'm in a relationship and if the move would be best for us. WELL, since i'm currently single and i don't know when my next relationship is going to come, i'm going to concentrate on whats best for aaron. and if i happen to be with someone when its time for my move, if she's the one, then she will also be apart of the move as well. i mean who wouldn't want to move to the big apple? but thats a long time from now. lets get a girlfriend first lol
today i had a talk with my mom about how she and i interact and it got real emotional for me. she will NEVER admit something even if she knows that she is wrong on and her excuse is its my house and thats how its going to be as long as u are in my house. now don't get me wrong, i do things that i shouldn't but i'm not purposely doing things to disrespect her. if i make a mistake i am willing to say "its my fault. i apologize." with her its "i don't remember saying/doing that" and thats not right at all. one thing that i do know, i will NOT raise my future child(ren) under that same philosophy. she is quick to say things about my dad about how he wasn't around for me as a child but i favor him or that i want to see him and stuff like that, but u don't say things like that to a young child. she also said other things but i'm going to go into it. but i will say this, if any of my readers have any kids, do NOT bash their mother/father in their face. especially if the child has a connection with them. regardless if you have a terrible relationship with them or not. its not fair. BUT BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING........Own up to your actions. i just recently learned to do that. i'm still learnin actually but i don't mind admitting when wrong.
lets see...what else....oh yeah!!!!
last night i went to the casino for the first time ever in life!!! i know i know i'm late but #dontjudgeme( lol for my tweeples) but it was really fun. i'm not big on gambling i only spent 3 bucks lol of course i lost it, but still i fun. i didn't get the games though. and what really baffled me was that the workers couldn't explain to u how to play the games. like what the heck is that about??? they couldn't touch anything. u couldn't even touch your cards and u have to motion with your hands on the table at that, if u wanted a hit or whatever the lingo is. lol my had a hot streak and won like 25 bucks but she got greedy and lost it lol it was fun. i wouldn't mind going back, but maybe with more money next time. lol good times
well thats all i have for tonight, holla at u guys later. until next time knuckle heads
peace and love
So, i'm back from houston and i hate it already. lol memphis is so boring and dead. i had a great time visiting my family. i had a long talk with my pops. he's getting ready to open his own business in January. he took me by his office and i can't wait for him to get it running. he deserves this and i am so proud of him. he's on this "i'm gettin older and i want to leave something to u guys when its my time" thing. i mean i get where he is coming from but i don't want to think about it. pops is 53. he's got a lot years left.
but anywho....
Pops really wants me to move out there. we went and looked a few schools in the Houston area. i liked them all, but after thinking and discussing it with michelle
(stepmom) we came to the conclusion that a move out there isn't whats best. really i said it, but she cosigned. so i decided that the best option now for me is to focus on graduating and going to a grad school that is in the area(s) that my major is needed most. mainly schools on the east coast and also one school in the south. right now i'm lookin at John Jay in NYC. I originally said that i wanted to move back to the east coast after i graduated but then i started thinking about if i'm in a relationship and if the move would be best for us. WELL, since i'm currently single and i don't know when my next relationship is going to come, i'm going to concentrate on whats best for aaron. and if i happen to be with someone when its time for my move, if she's the one, then she will also be apart of the move as well. i mean who wouldn't want to move to the big apple? but thats a long time from now. lets get a girlfriend first lol
today i had a talk with my mom about how she and i interact and it got real emotional for me. she will NEVER admit something even if she knows that she is wrong on and her excuse is its my house and thats how its going to be as long as u are in my house. now don't get me wrong, i do things that i shouldn't but i'm not purposely doing things to disrespect her. if i make a mistake i am willing to say "its my fault. i apologize." with her its "i don't remember saying/doing that" and thats not right at all. one thing that i do know, i will NOT raise my future child(ren) under that same philosophy. she is quick to say things about my dad about how he wasn't around for me as a child but i favor him or that i want to see him and stuff like that, but u don't say things like that to a young child. she also said other things but i'm going to go into it. but i will say this, if any of my readers have any kids, do NOT bash their mother/father in their face. especially if the child has a connection with them. regardless if you have a terrible relationship with them or not. its not fair. BUT BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING........Own up to your actions. i just recently learned to do that. i'm still learnin actually but i don't mind admitting when wrong.
lets see...what else....oh yeah!!!!
last night i went to the casino for the first time ever in life!!! i know i know i'm late but #dontjudgeme( lol for my tweeples) but it was really fun. i'm not big on gambling i only spent 3 bucks lol of course i lost it, but still i fun. i didn't get the games though. and what really baffled me was that the workers couldn't explain to u how to play the games. like what the heck is that about??? they couldn't touch anything. u couldn't even touch your cards and u have to motion with your hands on the table at that, if u wanted a hit or whatever the lingo is. lol my had a hot streak and won like 25 bucks but she got greedy and lost it lol it was fun. i wouldn't mind going back, but maybe with more money next time. lol good times
well thats all i have for tonight, holla at u guys later. until next time knuckle heads
peace and love
Sunday, October 18, 2009
mess and other stuff
wassup!
so i've been having different feelings and emotions about my life and the people in it. u ever feel like hitting the reset button and start over? well thats how i feel. i feel like i have made certain mistakes in the past that seem to keep poppin up. not saying that i can't handle them coming back into play, its that i'm just tired of them coming back ya kno? and its because i seem to have the "hard to let go bug" i talked to my home girl tonight and she made me realize a lot of things that we can't control, but we can control the mess that we allow to come back.
i don't necessarily mean people when i say mess. i mean situations. i allow situations to reoccur. its like i see them forming but i sometimes entertain it because its what i'm used to and then i sit back and look at it like "dang, here i go again". i'm so glad i was able to come visit my brothers in houston. i was able to sit them down and discuss A LOT of my mistakes that i made with them. especially my youngest brother. he's slackin a bit when it comes to the real world and he's gonna be out there in a short few months and i really want him to do well. as for my other brother, he's gonna be ok. i don't have the same worries for him that i have with jon. david is gonna be fine.
but back to my point*
MESS!!!!!!
I'm going to start making a more conscious effort to do better. whether it be financially, socially or whatever the case may be. I feel like God is tryin to show me things that will take me to the next level, but i have to let this mess go. i mean, to be a black man in america is hard enough, but the added drama is not needed. i'm not depressed or anything about it. its just is what it is.
i was seriously going crazy back in memphis. having to move home and deal with mothers mouth about dumb, simple things WILL make you go crazy. come the first of the year(2010) if i don't get my promotion, i'm gonna have to start lookin for other employment. i cannot and will not continue being in the same situation i'm in now. part of being a man is standing up and doing what u need to do. regardless of how much u may not want to, u have to do it. cuz i'll be damned if my wife(pray i get married lol) goes and asks her folks for anything.
so my dad wants me to move out here like today. lol he and michelle(stepmom) feel like there are things that i need to learn by living here and that i would benefit from it. granted i do miss living with them, but i feel like i would be living a fairy tale if i stayed here before i finished school. i have bills and obligations that i need to take care of first. i have school to finish up and then i can move. i did find out that i have family members in positions that i could greatly benefit from them helping me out. i think that 6 months after me graduating i will be ready to move on to the next level of my adulthood. whether it be here in houston or anywhere else. which brings me back to my original statement earlier saying that i prolly wouldn't have made the same mistakes i made had i been living here with them, but who's to say wouldn't have made others......
thats my time folks
peace and love
so i've been having different feelings and emotions about my life and the people in it. u ever feel like hitting the reset button and start over? well thats how i feel. i feel like i have made certain mistakes in the past that seem to keep poppin up. not saying that i can't handle them coming back into play, its that i'm just tired of them coming back ya kno? and its because i seem to have the "hard to let go bug" i talked to my home girl tonight and she made me realize a lot of things that we can't control, but we can control the mess that we allow to come back.
i don't necessarily mean people when i say mess. i mean situations. i allow situations to reoccur. its like i see them forming but i sometimes entertain it because its what i'm used to and then i sit back and look at it like "dang, here i go again". i'm so glad i was able to come visit my brothers in houston. i was able to sit them down and discuss A LOT of my mistakes that i made with them. especially my youngest brother. he's slackin a bit when it comes to the real world and he's gonna be out there in a short few months and i really want him to do well. as for my other brother, he's gonna be ok. i don't have the same worries for him that i have with jon. david is gonna be fine.
but back to my point*
MESS!!!!!!
I'm going to start making a more conscious effort to do better. whether it be financially, socially or whatever the case may be. I feel like God is tryin to show me things that will take me to the next level, but i have to let this mess go. i mean, to be a black man in america is hard enough, but the added drama is not needed. i'm not depressed or anything about it. its just is what it is.
i was seriously going crazy back in memphis. having to move home and deal with mothers mouth about dumb, simple things WILL make you go crazy. come the first of the year(2010) if i don't get my promotion, i'm gonna have to start lookin for other employment. i cannot and will not continue being in the same situation i'm in now. part of being a man is standing up and doing what u need to do. regardless of how much u may not want to, u have to do it. cuz i'll be damned if my wife(pray i get married lol) goes and asks her folks for anything.
so my dad wants me to move out here like today. lol he and michelle(stepmom) feel like there are things that i need to learn by living here and that i would benefit from it. granted i do miss living with them, but i feel like i would be living a fairy tale if i stayed here before i finished school. i have bills and obligations that i need to take care of first. i have school to finish up and then i can move. i did find out that i have family members in positions that i could greatly benefit from them helping me out. i think that 6 months after me graduating i will be ready to move on to the next level of my adulthood. whether it be here in houston or anywhere else. which brings me back to my original statement earlier saying that i prolly wouldn't have made the same mistakes i made had i been living here with them, but who's to say wouldn't have made others......
thats my time folks
peace and love
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
funk
i find myself really irritated with very small things lately, idk what it is but its really causing me to have arguments with people that i shouldn't have. i think that i am going thru a transition in my life where i don't want excuses. just do it. if u say your gonna do something, do it. i don't wanna hear i forgot or well, i didn't think u would____. i really don't have anything else to say. i'm just in a funk that i NEED to get out of.......
i had something more important to discus but i will talk about it when i'm in a better mood...hopefully tomorrow.
peace&love
i had something more important to discus but i will talk about it when i'm in a better mood...hopefully tomorrow.
peace&love
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