Wassup everyone!!
How was your week/weekend? I had a great post that I wanted to publish but I didn’t and I’m kinda glad I didn’t because it would have contradicted what I am gonna say tonight. So I guess here it goes….
Today after a back and forth battle for the past few days, my ex and I called it quits today and I’m feeling “different” about it. Honestly I had been thinking about doing this for a few days now but I wanted to make sure what I was feeling was right. I talked to a few people about it, a close friend of mine who is married and they basically said that I should have done it a long time ago when she came back into the picture. When my ex came back it thru me for a loop because of how much she said she was over me and didn’t want to be with me. I tried very hard to get her back but each time I brought it up, she ALWAYS turned me down so for it to happen I was kinda confused yet happy at the same time. Everything was cool at first but like before, it got bad. She hit a rough situation and I was there for her more than I thought that I was going to be. I enjoyed it. I liked her needing my help and I enjoyed helping her. She was my heart and I wanted only to be there for her. But I confused reality with fantasy.
I’ve tried hard to date other girls. But I just didn’t feel comfortable. Feeling like if I got too serious then she would come back, well this past time I learned that I can only look out for Aaron. There were a lot of things that I want to say but I have to keep certain things personal, but I will say this….affection goes a long way, so Show it. Men and women like it both equally. And with that said……… here I am……….alone……..again. I’m not lonely or sad. I just feel blank. That’s my time folks……..
Peace and Love.
sigh... u're not alone or lonely. and i apologize for letting you down when it comes to being affectionate. like i told u tonite, that's not what i was trying to do. i can't make u understand my views on trust and the process of earning trust and i know that with your friends' limited knowledge of our situation they're confused as to why i won't just give you trust like nothing ever happened. regardless, i'm not willing to do such a thing.
ReplyDeletegood luck with everything and i hope u continue to reach out to sound mentors that are living their lives in the way that you hope to live your.
- dani
Ok, now I don't know exactly what happened so I'll just say this. I believe that everything happens for a reason. Every broken heart, or unsuccessful relationship is what molds you into the person you need to be when you find "the one". I know it's kinda corny lol, but it's just how I feel.
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