delusional

SOOOO........


today was very interesting to say the least. first off let me say hello to my new follower. i didn't even know you knew i had a blog but you do now so welcome....
ok now, back to my day. it started off very wrong. i had a terrible pain in my lower back that caused me to miss my first class, but i got up and went to my 2nd only to find out it was canceled. waste of time and gas. so i go home and fix myself something to eat.......then you know who comes a crawling


last night after we argued via fb chat about about absolutely nothing mind you. i go to bed but i couldn't sleep. something was bothering me.....The guy she's been seeing this whole time.....i wanted to know the REAL truth about whats been going on. like i told you all b4, she was playin me this whole time pretending to be wanting to be with me and work things out and eventually getting married. so i did a little research(thank God for facebook) i found him. all this time, this was all i had to do. its funny, the things you think of to do AFTER everything is over with. so i sent him a message asking him if he knew what was going on. and if he did know, what all didn't he know. i also made it clear that i wasn't tryin to get her back at all and if she lied to me about her feelings then should would/could do it to him.

so she sees one of my tweets sayin that i was gonna get revenge. poor choice of words on my end but i really wasn't trying to. i just wanted to get to the bottom of this. oh, and then come to find out she sent a friend of mine a message on facebook(3pages worth) on EVERYTHING that she and i have been through. i guess she did it to make the girl stop talkin to me. but my friend and i are cool. well, we will be. i kinda doubted her a little and didn't think about things from her view, but i will handle all that tomorrow......back to the story tho. so my ex is textin me threatening to call my future employer and tell them things to get them to not hire me. so i told her what i did and i guess she thought i was playing. oh wait get this, she tried to make it seem like I was the one that was trying to get back together and trying to make this work, um no babe. that was ALLLLL you.she called me at 4am(i have phone records) begging me to work things out, and for me to forgive her for what she did wit my homie, and askin me to me marry her(exact words:" i love you so much baby. lets get married tomorrow downtown") begged me to come meet her at wafflehouse so we could talk. so i was just like eff this. i'm not the one thats lying about this so i stopped texting her. she then came back at me and said that her and ol boy already talked about things and that he knew everything. well obviously he didn't know everything because he asked me questions that she had been lying about. she was telling him i was the one that was in denial and that she had been told me that she was over me and that i was delusional about our relationship. now guys, come on now. seriously. so i told him the truth and i gave him my number and to call me whenever he wanted to discuss ANYTHING that had been going on. the harassing texts and threats continued and she even called my mother and told her that i was tryin to sabotage her life.......blank stare.......BUT I'M PSYCHOTIC????

#GETTHEFUCKOUTTAHERE!!!

so i haven't actually heard anything else about anything from him. idk if she got a hold to him and got her lies through to him or if he realized that this wasn't the type of girl he needs in his life. but honestly i don't care. like i'm sooo ready for this to be over with. its amazing how when you let something go,and your all the way ready to, how nothing phases you. i told her that i hated her, but i don't. i said lots of mean things i shouldn't have said. but i said them and i regret it. i just want this to be over. i want her to leave me alone, i will obviously do the same, and go our own ways. i don't think thats too much to ask for.

what you guys think?