so i gotta admit, i've been in this funk for a few days now. its not anything that i did, but its from some things that were "revealed" to me the other day. a really good friend of mine told me something that he did and it really upset me....well let me take that back, it disappointed me because i would have never in a million years expect him to do something like this. i got some real low down "friends" but he wasn't like that. and what really made me mad was that not only did he lie to me about it, and hide it, it was the way he told me. he said it like...idk really how to describe it but here is his words "before her ass try to make it into some bullshit...."
so u guys see where i'm coming from right??
one thing that i know about myself is that i'm a very trusting person and i actually treat my friendships like they are suppose to. if my homeboy tells me something i keep it between us. if someone needs something and i have the funds to get it, i got u. hell, u can put me in a room with ALL my homie's girls and i wouldn't touch them. i don't cross that line. i guess its just a sign for me from God sayin that i need to watch who i call a friend. because...well honestly, i prolly can say that excluding the big homie, whom i just met btw, i can't trust 95% of my male "friends" i think thats why i don't have any real male friends anymore. my best friend is slowly lettin his life go to waste by not actually doing anything with his life and is still jobless and still smokes his life away. not sayin that there is nothing wrong with gettin high, but get a job first. my former college homies are ALL bums and liars. i had a friend whom i woulda did anything for try to fuck my ex on multiply occasions. not to mention he has 3 kids and only half way takes care of the first one(only because he's named after him)i just want positive people in my life. if it means that i don't go out or go to games with the "guys" or have to watch fights alone then so be it. but i'm not gonna worry about small things like this anymore. i've made it this far and i'm still going on. to my male friends that don't fit into this category, don't take it personal. i'm just sayin. the fake friend crap is over.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
writers block
hey everyone!!1
how's your weekend going? mine has been really relaxing and very chill. i didn't go anywhere today and i liked that. i've gone out every weekend this past month and i enjoyed my fun, but sometimes its good to just stay at home. although next week i'm suppose to be hangin out with a friend but i'm havin mixed thoughts about going. he's an old friend, one of the few people i am still in contact with since i started college, but i will keep u guys posted.
*side note:i wish i knew how to put a music player on my blog so i could play music while u guys read my posts. but just to give u guys a visual i'm listening to Carl Thomas first album, "Giving You All My Love"*
back to the blog
i think i know what was preventing me from bloggin for so long. lack of inspiration. i had plenty to write about(LOTS) but i just didn't feel like the things that were going on was something that i needed to write about. well some of it was worth it, but i just didn't want to give that situation more power than it had, but in actuality i was by not talkin about it and lettin it build. well last night i had a talk with the big homie and he pretty much told me what i needed to hear. as u all already know, i have been going through this back and forth battle with my ex for months now and i think that its finally dead. like she did something the other day and it really pissed me off and at that moment, i said enough is enough with this. she knows what she's doin when she says(well text rather) the things she says. it was really random and when i tried to ask her about it, she replied"she shouldn't have sent me that message and that it wasn't her place to say what it is that she thinks that i am doing wrong." ok thats all fine and dandy, but don't initiate the conversation and then come back like oh i don't wanna talk about it,BUT something told me to check her twitter and sure enough, i found what i was lookin for. she can talk about me on there, but she can't tell me what it is thats bothering her. now u would think after EVERYTHING that we have been through, everything that i have recently helped her out with, she would have no problem at all. i mean, she has never been shy about speakin her mind, but today, she don't wanna talk??? if u guys knew what all i have done for her recently, u all would think that i was crazy for doing it. but hey, when u care about someone when they are at their lowest, u wanna help them. but all that is over with. whatever problem she has will be just that...hers. i'm not bitter or angry about it, its just not my battle.
how's your weekend going? mine has been really relaxing and very chill. i didn't go anywhere today and i liked that. i've gone out every weekend this past month and i enjoyed my fun, but sometimes its good to just stay at home. although next week i'm suppose to be hangin out with a friend but i'm havin mixed thoughts about going. he's an old friend, one of the few people i am still in contact with since i started college, but i will keep u guys posted.
*side note:i wish i knew how to put a music player on my blog so i could play music while u guys read my posts. but just to give u guys a visual i'm listening to Carl Thomas first album, "Giving You All My Love"*
back to the blog
i think i know what was preventing me from bloggin for so long. lack of inspiration. i had plenty to write about(LOTS) but i just didn't feel like the things that were going on was something that i needed to write about. well some of it was worth it, but i just didn't want to give that situation more power than it had, but in actuality i was by not talkin about it and lettin it build. well last night i had a talk with the big homie and he pretty much told me what i needed to hear. as u all already know, i have been going through this back and forth battle with my ex for months now and i think that its finally dead. like she did something the other day and it really pissed me off and at that moment, i said enough is enough with this. she knows what she's doin when she says(well text rather) the things she says. it was really random and when i tried to ask her about it, she replied"she shouldn't have sent me that message and that it wasn't her place to say what it is that she thinks that i am doing wrong." ok thats all fine and dandy, but don't initiate the conversation and then come back like oh i don't wanna talk about it,BUT something told me to check her twitter and sure enough, i found what i was lookin for. she can talk about me on there, but she can't tell me what it is thats bothering her. now u would think after EVERYTHING that we have been through, everything that i have recently helped her out with, she would have no problem at all. i mean, she has never been shy about speakin her mind, but today, she don't wanna talk??? if u guys knew what all i have done for her recently, u all would think that i was crazy for doing it. but hey, when u care about someone when they are at their lowest, u wanna help them. but all that is over with. whatever problem she has will be just that...hers. i'm not bitter or angry about it, its just not my battle.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
i'm doing better lol
so i had this blog i had been writin since tuesday but i don't feel like writin it anymore lol
wassup everyone(i almost said tweeple lol)
so today was a really good day. i got outta class early today and went to Lemoyne Owen college to see my co-worker step. now this was the first time i ever been to a HBCU stepshow, so i was a little excited...until i got there. it was so damn hot in that gym was silly. like image being in gym class as a kid with no air on the inside and then add ALL the black people that go to that school. how was the stepshow u ask?? horrible. worst stepshow i'd ever been to. LOC has to be the most ghetto-est school in the history of college. they were playin basketball before the stepshow started!!WTDTA!!! so of course after they stepped, me and my homeboys left.
so what else.....
like today was a really good day. i did't have any major issues. it was really cool. talked to pops today. he's really tryin to make some moves for me. if it keeps up, i might be makin some major moves sooner than i thought and tht would be great.
my plans for the weekend....
notadamnthang!!!! lol i am gonna chill and have fun all weekend. i think my friends and i are gonna go out tomorrow and thats all i really have planned. oh and watch a lot of football.
*side note(blackstreet first album was a banger!!!!!!)
i wanna briefly touch on one other subject. i just wanna say that stayin calm during "random moments" really helps. today i got a text and it kinda pissed me off, like wth did this come from. but u can't make someone explain there beef with u. just take it and let roll and thats what i learned. i really am thankful for the people that have recently been put in my life cuz i been gettin all types of advise from their situations and it helps a lot. you know u think that u can stay calm but sometimes u need that extra voice that says "relax, relate, release friend"
peace and love ya'll
wassup everyone(i almost said tweeple lol)
so today was a really good day. i got outta class early today and went to Lemoyne Owen college to see my co-worker step. now this was the first time i ever been to a HBCU stepshow, so i was a little excited...until i got there. it was so damn hot in that gym was silly. like image being in gym class as a kid with no air on the inside and then add ALL the black people that go to that school. how was the stepshow u ask?? horrible. worst stepshow i'd ever been to. LOC has to be the most ghetto-est school in the history of college. they were playin basketball before the stepshow started!!WTDTA!!! so of course after they stepped, me and my homeboys left.
so what else.....
like today was a really good day. i did't have any major issues. it was really cool. talked to pops today. he's really tryin to make some moves for me. if it keeps up, i might be makin some major moves sooner than i thought and tht would be great.
my plans for the weekend....
notadamnthang!!!! lol i am gonna chill and have fun all weekend. i think my friends and i are gonna go out tomorrow and thats all i really have planned. oh and watch a lot of football.
*side note(blackstreet first album was a banger!!!!!!)
i wanna briefly touch on one other subject. i just wanna say that stayin calm during "random moments" really helps. today i got a text and it kinda pissed me off, like wth did this come from. but u can't make someone explain there beef with u. just take it and let roll and thats what i learned. i really am thankful for the people that have recently been put in my life cuz i been gettin all types of advise from their situations and it helps a lot. you know u think that u can stay calm but sometimes u need that extra voice that says "relax, relate, release friend"
peace and love ya'll
Monday, September 21, 2009
gone but not forgotten
hey everyone,
sorry i have been mia on my blogging but i just didn't have any inspiration to write. don't get me wrong, i have had plenty to write about, i felt like there weren't any words to describe how i felt. i did, however talk to the homie(whats good fam! how bout them giants) and he helped me get past my issue. i hate to keep talkin about it, but its like this is still a major part of my young life and everything that i do now, has some sort of effect on my tomorrow. i will say that i am happy with where i am now, and i am enjoying life.
lets see what else......
i went to the Erykah Badu concert a few weeks ago and i had a good time. i also met some of my twitter friends that night too. speaking of twitter, the crew, these guys are my homies. even tho they are all alcoholics, i love em. i also went to the classic last weekend too. it was fun, got drunk(shout out to busyB) AND got more drunk. lol
oh, i forgot to tell u guys, i'm going to houston next month. i'm really serious about gettin outta memphis. i'm going for my fall break and i can't wait. i'm gonna go look at some schools for grad school and i'm also gonna get to spend some time with my pops too. can't wait for that. remember a few entries ago when i said that there was something that i wanted to discuss but i wasn't really ready to discuss it? well i'm still not ready but it has something to do with my trip to houston too. when i get back from texas i will tell u guys i promise. lol
thats all i have for now. since its #musicmonday, here's a song that i'm listening to on my ipod. this is for you..
peace and love yall
sorry i have been mia on my blogging but i just didn't have any inspiration to write. don't get me wrong, i have had plenty to write about, i felt like there weren't any words to describe how i felt. i did, however talk to the homie(whats good fam! how bout them giants) and he helped me get past my issue. i hate to keep talkin about it, but its like this is still a major part of my young life and everything that i do now, has some sort of effect on my tomorrow. i will say that i am happy with where i am now, and i am enjoying life.
lets see what else......
i went to the Erykah Badu concert a few weeks ago and i had a good time. i also met some of my twitter friends that night too. speaking of twitter, the crew, these guys are my homies. even tho they are all alcoholics, i love em. i also went to the classic last weekend too. it was fun, got drunk(shout out to busyB) AND got more drunk. lol
oh, i forgot to tell u guys, i'm going to houston next month. i'm really serious about gettin outta memphis. i'm going for my fall break and i can't wait. i'm gonna go look at some schools for grad school and i'm also gonna get to spend some time with my pops too. can't wait for that. remember a few entries ago when i said that there was something that i wanted to discuss but i wasn't really ready to discuss it? well i'm still not ready but it has something to do with my trip to houston too. when i get back from texas i will tell u guys i promise. lol
thats all i have for now. since its #musicmonday, here's a song that i'm listening to on my ipod. this is for you..
peace and love yall
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
my bad!!!!!!!!!
ok so tonight was suppose to be the night that i blogged but the game came on threw me completely off plus somethin else came up that also made me fall back on from writing and instead asked my "crew" a question and they gave me really good solid answers so tomorrow after class, i'm going to write what i wanted to say tonight and i will let u all get in on the topic as well. ok i gotta get some rest before i pass out.
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Monday, August 31, 2009
my weekend
hey everyone!
hope u all had a great weekend. my weekend was cool.i went out with my home boys for my friend spida birthday. we tried to see final destination 3D. So glad it was sold out!! I so didnt want to pay to see a movie that i could definitely could wait til it came out on video and then wait longer until it got sold at dollar general for a dollar. so we went to this bar and had some burgers and beer and did what guys do best....talk about women, sports and more women. i like going to bars a lot more than going to clubs and parties because it becomes actual memories that u appreciate later in life. Whereas going to the club becomes a night of drunkness that can't be given back. so anywho, we had fun and kicked it back at the house and played madden on the new tv. I LOVE MY NEW TV!!! HD is the bitnaazz!!! lol i watched things that i never even thought about watching in HD(a funeral, CNN, tvONE, ETC) and of course ESPN! I feel like regular tv is beneath me lol
Today, however went a little different than the past two days. it started off good. i woke up and went to church and i enjoyed it for the most part(i got there late so i had to sit in the back with the loud kids and the people that come to church 5 min before the sermon is over acting like they didn't know service started at 9:30???) Then i got a call from my landlord sayin that i have to move out my house because she got into it with my roommate's father( her now ex husband) She said that he called the police on her and now she can't have any contact with his family so we have to move out!! so i'm like wTh?? She said that she would give us time to find a new place to live but she didn't say how long she would give us.(yeah i know. eff'd up right?) So i called my roommate but he has a cricket phone and he is out of town so i couldn't do anything but leave a message for him to call me back asap. So, i did the next best thing and that was to call his mom. his mom rents homes as well so i told her about our situation and it just so happened that she just bought a house on friday and asked if i wanted to go look at it. well the house is nice, but its not as big as the house we have now. plus its in a different neighborhood. and by different i mean its one street over from hood cats. now don't get me wrong, the house is on a nice street, but i don't like the possibility of the wrong people walkin down the street lookin into my house seeing what i got.
But the real issues I have are with my roommates. I feel like I am outgrowing them. Rashid(my bestfriend) has no job and car and is not in anyone's college. He stopped going to CBU about 2yrs ago and hasn't been in school since. And did i mention he JUST got his liscense!!! well, his permit but he will get his DL in 2 weeks when i takes the test. Its not that he isn't smart, he made good grades in school. its just that he his lazy. extremely lazy and thats not a good look for a guy his age. did i mention he gets high and expects to get a job??? but he takes these pills that people "say" will help u pass a drug test. but i'm sure u need to stop smokin before u take the pills and the drug test for a job. Then there is Milan. Milan is cool, but he needs to be in school. He's really into music like his father and brother is, but the talent that comes to the house isn't going to get him exposure. Now his beats....THE BOY IS OFF THE CHAIN!!!! I'm not just sayin that cuz he's my boy, but he is a real monster on the beats. He just needs to get heard. but u can't get heard letting wack memphis rappers rap on your beats. instead of getting high on the weekends and before he goes to work, he needs to be in ATL or somewhere tryin to get his music out there. Even if he takes his music to local clubs and radio stations thats a step above then where he is now. And now i found out that some of the people that come to the house to record, aren't even payin. they just there to waste time. and i'm like this is not gonna work at the new house. this is why i say that i really want some friends that were on my thinking level. its just difficult.
So Ms. Roby was like thats not gonna fly at her house if we move in. so she said that she might just wait and let us rent out the house later once they get their lives together. I told her that i would give them a month and if things don't change then i will just move back home to my moms house and i really don't want to do that. i mean i know that i'm in school and it doesn't seem so bad but i'm a grown man and i like to have my own space. i do NOT want to be stayin in my moms house. I can't have company over if i wanted, not to say that i have females coming in and out the house now, but if i wanted to have a movie night with a friend and i can't cuz i need to ask if its ok first! i'm not down with that at all. So we will see what happens at the end of sept. lets hope they get it togther.
so that was my weekend. tomorrow(well today rather) is the first day of school and i'm excited! i even took my clothes out for the firs day( i know i know i'm lame)i'm just glad to be in class and to be happy about my major. i really think that this is going to be a great semester! hit u guys tomorrow!
peace and love y'all
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hope u all had a great weekend. my weekend was cool.i went out with my home boys for my friend spida birthday. we tried to see final destination 3D. So glad it was sold out!! I so didnt want to pay to see a movie that i could definitely could wait til it came out on video and then wait longer until it got sold at dollar general for a dollar. so we went to this bar and had some burgers and beer and did what guys do best....talk about women, sports and more women. i like going to bars a lot more than going to clubs and parties because it becomes actual memories that u appreciate later in life. Whereas going to the club becomes a night of drunkness that can't be given back. so anywho, we had fun and kicked it back at the house and played madden on the new tv. I LOVE MY NEW TV!!! HD is the bitnaazz!!! lol i watched things that i never even thought about watching in HD(a funeral, CNN, tvONE, ETC) and of course ESPN! I feel like regular tv is beneath me lol
Today, however went a little different than the past two days. it started off good. i woke up and went to church and i enjoyed it for the most part(i got there late so i had to sit in the back with the loud kids and the people that come to church 5 min before the sermon is over acting like they didn't know service started at 9:30???) Then i got a call from my landlord sayin that i have to move out my house because she got into it with my roommate's father( her now ex husband) She said that he called the police on her and now she can't have any contact with his family so we have to move out!! so i'm like wTh?? She said that she would give us time to find a new place to live but she didn't say how long she would give us.(yeah i know. eff'd up right?) So i called my roommate but he has a cricket phone and he is out of town so i couldn't do anything but leave a message for him to call me back asap. So, i did the next best thing and that was to call his mom. his mom rents homes as well so i told her about our situation and it just so happened that she just bought a house on friday and asked if i wanted to go look at it. well the house is nice, but its not as big as the house we have now. plus its in a different neighborhood. and by different i mean its one street over from hood cats. now don't get me wrong, the house is on a nice street, but i don't like the possibility of the wrong people walkin down the street lookin into my house seeing what i got.
But the real issues I have are with my roommates. I feel like I am outgrowing them. Rashid(my bestfriend) has no job and car and is not in anyone's college. He stopped going to CBU about 2yrs ago and hasn't been in school since. And did i mention he JUST got his liscense!!! well, his permit but he will get his DL in 2 weeks when i takes the test. Its not that he isn't smart, he made good grades in school. its just that he his lazy. extremely lazy and thats not a good look for a guy his age. did i mention he gets high and expects to get a job??? but he takes these pills that people "say" will help u pass a drug test. but i'm sure u need to stop smokin before u take the pills and the drug test for a job. Then there is Milan. Milan is cool, but he needs to be in school. He's really into music like his father and brother is, but the talent that comes to the house isn't going to get him exposure. Now his beats....THE BOY IS OFF THE CHAIN!!!! I'm not just sayin that cuz he's my boy, but he is a real monster on the beats. He just needs to get heard. but u can't get heard letting wack memphis rappers rap on your beats. instead of getting high on the weekends and before he goes to work, he needs to be in ATL or somewhere tryin to get his music out there. Even if he takes his music to local clubs and radio stations thats a step above then where he is now. And now i found out that some of the people that come to the house to record, aren't even payin. they just there to waste time. and i'm like this is not gonna work at the new house. this is why i say that i really want some friends that were on my thinking level. its just difficult.
So Ms. Roby was like thats not gonna fly at her house if we move in. so she said that she might just wait and let us rent out the house later once they get their lives together. I told her that i would give them a month and if things don't change then i will just move back home to my moms house and i really don't want to do that. i mean i know that i'm in school and it doesn't seem so bad but i'm a grown man and i like to have my own space. i do NOT want to be stayin in my moms house. I can't have company over if i wanted, not to say that i have females coming in and out the house now, but if i wanted to have a movie night with a friend and i can't cuz i need to ask if its ok first! i'm not down with that at all. So we will see what happens at the end of sept. lets hope they get it togther.
so that was my weekend. tomorrow(well today rather) is the first day of school and i'm excited! i even took my clothes out for the firs day( i know i know i'm lame)i'm just glad to be in class and to be happy about my major. i really think that this is going to be a great semester! hit u guys tomorrow!
peace and love y'all
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Friday, August 28, 2009
quick update
Hey everyone!
How have you all been? Sorry I’ve been a missing in action the past few days. But I have had a few things going on in my life and I have just been a little busy. But I I’m here and back to stay! Lol
So what’s new u ask??
Well first off let me tell u guys about the dream that I had the other night, I had a dream about a friend of mine that I have never had sexual thoughts of and it really scared me because I don’t look at my female friends that way, but it happens so I guess it’s normal. But still, it was gross!! Lol Then I had a dream that someone close to me was very upset about something and I was trying my hardest to get them to feel better but nothing that I said really helped. They just cried and cried and cried. Then I wake up. Crazy dream right??? *Well it gets better* On Wednesday afternoon I get a call from a friend and she is crying and screaming and I couldn’t help but feel déjà vu. But what I was really upset about was the fact that I saw this coming with her, but just not this soon. She’s a great girl and deserves to be happy. I hate to see her sad. Any of my friends really. It’s just how I am. I try to be the happy person that they can go to when they are down. I had someone ask me for advice the other night and I really helped her out! She and her boyfriend are doing better.
I got my check from school on Thursday and I love my laptop!! Its freekin awesome!! It has a built in webcam so that means I will be able to upload video blogs as well (oh yeah! Skype me! Wofca1 lol) it’s a 16in monitor Hp laptop. It’s really cool. I got my TV too! 32in flat screen. And the best part is that I get HD channels with basic cable. Bootleg cable at that!!! Lol so u all already know ya boy is on a cloud number #9, So right now I’m feeling like Plies, “I got plenty money!!” lmao!!! I went and got some food for the house too! My roommates are terrible with spending. I know I got it bad, but dang they got me beat. I got some clothes too and tomorrow I will get some shoes. Speakin of shoes, today I bout my ex a few things. She’s been stressed out a lot about a lot of things. She’s really doing big things here in Memphis and I know it gets a little overwhelming to her, so I just wanted to cheer her up a bit.
I have a blog on relationships that I want to write about but I want to wait until I get a few things straightened out first then I will write about it. Possibly as soon as today. I’m off and I don’t have anything to do!! I want to go out to tomorrow but, u guys know how I am about randoms lol I meant what I was saying lol
Well that’s all I have for now. Sorry it wasn’t as exciting as my other entries but I will have more to write once things in my life get on track! Thanks for stopping by
Peace and love,
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How have you all been? Sorry I’ve been a missing in action the past few days. But I have had a few things going on in my life and I have just been a little busy. But I I’m here and back to stay! Lol
So what’s new u ask??
Well first off let me tell u guys about the dream that I had the other night, I had a dream about a friend of mine that I have never had sexual thoughts of and it really scared me because I don’t look at my female friends that way, but it happens so I guess it’s normal. But still, it was gross!! Lol Then I had a dream that someone close to me was very upset about something and I was trying my hardest to get them to feel better but nothing that I said really helped. They just cried and cried and cried. Then I wake up. Crazy dream right??? *Well it gets better* On Wednesday afternoon I get a call from a friend and she is crying and screaming and I couldn’t help but feel déjà vu. But what I was really upset about was the fact that I saw this coming with her, but just not this soon. She’s a great girl and deserves to be happy. I hate to see her sad. Any of my friends really. It’s just how I am. I try to be the happy person that they can go to when they are down. I had someone ask me for advice the other night and I really helped her out! She and her boyfriend are doing better.
I got my check from school on Thursday and I love my laptop!! Its freekin awesome!! It has a built in webcam so that means I will be able to upload video blogs as well (oh yeah! Skype me! Wofca1 lol) it’s a 16in monitor Hp laptop. It’s really cool. I got my TV too! 32in flat screen. And the best part is that I get HD channels with basic cable. Bootleg cable at that!!! Lol so u all already know ya boy is on a cloud number #9, So right now I’m feeling like Plies, “I got plenty money!!” lmao!!! I went and got some food for the house too! My roommates are terrible with spending. I know I got it bad, but dang they got me beat. I got some clothes too and tomorrow I will get some shoes. Speakin of shoes, today I bout my ex a few things. She’s been stressed out a lot about a lot of things. She’s really doing big things here in Memphis and I know it gets a little overwhelming to her, so I just wanted to cheer her up a bit.
I have a blog on relationships that I want to write about but I want to wait until I get a few things straightened out first then I will write about it. Possibly as soon as today. I’m off and I don’t have anything to do!! I want to go out to tomorrow but, u guys know how I am about randoms lol I meant what I was saying lol
Well that’s all I have for now. Sorry it wasn’t as exciting as my other entries but I will have more to write once things in my life get on track! Thanks for stopping by
Peace and love,
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
my joy
i am truly happy
for the first time in months. i am 100% happy. I've said that i was happy before, but i truly am now. I'm not stressed about anything. i don't know where my happiness came from, but I'm not complaining about it. i have had a lot of things happen to me this year and i have been stressed for a long portion of it. some of the stress came from me and my doings, my moms divorce, my break up, school, work. u name it, i was stressed about it. at the beginning of the year i said that i want to get closer to God and really have a relationship with Him. This whole year i have come up short every time that even attempted to work on it. One thing I have noticed about God is that he is not going to allow ANYTHING come between you and Him if you truly have it in your heart to be with Him. EVERYTHING that was bothering me is no longer around. I've been talkin to my friend about her relationship and i just give her pointers on things and how a man thinks and we both have been sayin that we wanted to get closer spiritual with God, and we both started reading the book of Job and didn't know we both started reading it. ironic right??? lol but to my readers if u haven't i suggest that you do. if you have ever felt like you were alone or feel like God is not hearing you, read his story and i guarantee you will have a new outlook on things. well that was my sermon for the day, i hope you all are having a good one. i will post another entry later on tonight.
for the first time in months. i am 100% happy. I've said that i was happy before, but i truly am now. I'm not stressed about anything. i don't know where my happiness came from, but I'm not complaining about it. i have had a lot of things happen to me this year and i have been stressed for a long portion of it. some of the stress came from me and my doings, my moms divorce, my break up, school, work. u name it, i was stressed about it. at the beginning of the year i said that i want to get closer to God and really have a relationship with Him. This whole year i have come up short every time that even attempted to work on it. One thing I have noticed about God is that he is not going to allow ANYTHING come between you and Him if you truly have it in your heart to be with Him. EVERYTHING that was bothering me is no longer around. I've been talkin to my friend about her relationship and i just give her pointers on things and how a man thinks and we both have been sayin that we wanted to get closer spiritual with God, and we both started reading the book of Job and didn't know we both started reading it. ironic right??? lol but to my readers if u haven't i suggest that you do. if you have ever felt like you were alone or feel like God is not hearing you, read his story and i guarantee you will have a new outlook on things. well that was my sermon for the day, i hope you all are having a good one. i will post another entry later on tonight.
Monday, August 24, 2009
my random weekend
What's good everyone!!
First off I wanna say hello and welcome to my new followers. Thank u for your support. Feel free to leave comments if u want or u can hit me up on facebook or Twitter if u don't want your comment to be public. I'm open to all comments positive or negative.
So with that said, how was everyone’s weekend???
Every weekend I say it's going to be boring and lame but something comes along and makes it exciting. There was no exception this time although Friday started off rocky. I woke up to a call from my ex explaining to me what she felt about my blog post about recent events. We didn't yell or anything but we did disagree on a few things and I said something that I shouldn't and I immediately felt bad for saying. But u know how it goes when u are in the moment. I just didn't agree with how she was/is handling her "relationship" with ol' boy. But I realized I can't compare what she is doing with what we did. All I know is that when I find the girl that I want to possibly call my girlfriend, we won't be doing it the way she is. Communication is a major factor in relationships on all levels and I don't want to keep anything from the person that I feel is going to be with me. I learned my lesson with my ex. But she said that she didn't want to be friends because of my "feelings" for her. Yes I care about her and yes I wish things were different, but it is what it is. Time to move on and that's what I'm doing and I'm enjoying my growth (thanks to you). But I told her whenever she feels like she's ready we can be friends. We'll see what happens....
Saturday
*Ok so before I get into this let me say this, everything is true that I'm about to say. Lol*
I'm not sure if I said it in my previous post, but my roommate decided he wanted to have a party and I was NOT thrilled about it. He wanted to charge people to come to a house party. The last party as u all know was a bust (new followers read previous posts from July to get caught up) so I already knew that this one was going to be terrible. One thing I know about partied is that u don't charge college kids to do something that they already been doing. Well I get home from work and its a few people here already. Mainly niggas. No girls except the regulars that come and kick it throughout the week. I didn't even plug the party or anything. I just knew it was going to be wack and I didn’t want anything to do with it. Lol
So everyone is there, random white people that didn't belong and knew they didn't, niggas, 4 girls and more niggas. Lol I'm amazed right now because people are still paying to get in, when every Sunday they do the same thing for free. So I'm sitting on the counter talkin to the regulars when I see this tall ass dude come walkin in my house. I see him and I think "where do I know this guy from". Light skinned. Tall with dreads. Everyone in the house gets dead quiet. Like the music stopped and everything like in the movies when the record scratches........it’s the Memphis rapper Nakia Shine. WOMP freakin Womp. He is a wack rapper. Like REALLY WACK! Now i have had a few drinks so i'm feelin pretty good at the moment, so i blurt out, "why everyone get quiet. He aint 8ball or MJG"!(fellow local rappers that made it to a major label for those that don't know)and everyone starts ballin laughin. But I was serious. lol Then i see these 3 white girls come outta nowhere. They were his groupies!!!!!ROTFLMAO!!!!! They were broke down!! lol But hey you gotta start somewhere right??? Well he puts in his mixtape in and it’s a hot mess. He raps over KiD CuDi day n nite song and it sounds like garbage. then he was like his video is gonna be on mtv next week and for us to look out for it. So heres my beef. If you on mtv homie, wth are u doing at a house party in Memphis on a Saturday night?? Its how many clubs here and u decide to stop at a house party with your homeboy? Did u think we were gonna call more people over so u can “get it started” like the black eyed peas??? Um no. leave and don’t come back. Ever in life.
*But it gets worse*
So its now like 2am and people are still here but slowly leaving. I go outside and I see my roommate older brother outside talkin. Now this man is 35yrs old minimum and so is his friend wit gold teeth ALLLLL across his front teeth. So they come in and the first thing this dude say is, “yall got some rotel dip?” I’m like dude its 2:30 am wth would we have that at this hour. Then he asks,” can I have some of those grapes in the refrigerator?” im like nigga naw!!! This guy was like a real life bruh man from Martin. So back to my roommate brother, why is he tryin to talk to this girl that is 19yrs old that aint tryin to hear anything he got to say. Talkin bout he 26!!! I mean I understand if u you like younger women but don’t lie about your age and definitely don’t do it when you are MARRIED!@!!!! Then to top it off dude was like lets get on Facebook and find some freaks. SERIOUSLY?????????????????? WHERE THEY DO THAT AT????????So they pretty much lingering around and its almost 5am. I couldn’t take it anymore so I decided to go to bed. My buzz was gone and I was starting to get a headache. Come to find out they didn’t leave until almost 7am!
So that’s how I spent my weekend. It was sooooo random! I’m still not ready to discuss what I want to write about yet, but know that the day is coming soon. I think that you(my readers) will be happy to read it. I hope u all enjoyed my story. Hope everyone has a great Monday and a great week!
Peace and love
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First off I wanna say hello and welcome to my new followers. Thank u for your support. Feel free to leave comments if u want or u can hit me up on facebook or Twitter if u don't want your comment to be public. I'm open to all comments positive or negative.
So with that said, how was everyone’s weekend???
Every weekend I say it's going to be boring and lame but something comes along and makes it exciting. There was no exception this time although Friday started off rocky. I woke up to a call from my ex explaining to me what she felt about my blog post about recent events. We didn't yell or anything but we did disagree on a few things and I said something that I shouldn't and I immediately felt bad for saying. But u know how it goes when u are in the moment. I just didn't agree with how she was/is handling her "relationship" with ol' boy. But I realized I can't compare what she is doing with what we did. All I know is that when I find the girl that I want to possibly call my girlfriend, we won't be doing it the way she is. Communication is a major factor in relationships on all levels and I don't want to keep anything from the person that I feel is going to be with me. I learned my lesson with my ex. But she said that she didn't want to be friends because of my "feelings" for her. Yes I care about her and yes I wish things were different, but it is what it is. Time to move on and that's what I'm doing and I'm enjoying my growth (thanks to you). But I told her whenever she feels like she's ready we can be friends. We'll see what happens....
Saturday
*Ok so before I get into this let me say this, everything is true that I'm about to say. Lol*
I'm not sure if I said it in my previous post, but my roommate decided he wanted to have a party and I was NOT thrilled about it. He wanted to charge people to come to a house party. The last party as u all know was a bust (new followers read previous posts from July to get caught up) so I already knew that this one was going to be terrible. One thing I know about partied is that u don't charge college kids to do something that they already been doing. Well I get home from work and its a few people here already. Mainly niggas. No girls except the regulars that come and kick it throughout the week. I didn't even plug the party or anything. I just knew it was going to be wack and I didn’t want anything to do with it. Lol
So everyone is there, random white people that didn't belong and knew they didn't, niggas, 4 girls and more niggas. Lol I'm amazed right now because people are still paying to get in, when every Sunday they do the same thing for free. So I'm sitting on the counter talkin to the regulars when I see this tall ass dude come walkin in my house. I see him and I think "where do I know this guy from". Light skinned. Tall with dreads. Everyone in the house gets dead quiet. Like the music stopped and everything like in the movies when the record scratches........it’s the Memphis rapper Nakia Shine. WOMP freakin Womp. He is a wack rapper. Like REALLY WACK! Now i have had a few drinks so i'm feelin pretty good at the moment, so i blurt out, "why everyone get quiet. He aint 8ball or MJG"!(fellow local rappers that made it to a major label for those that don't know)and everyone starts ballin laughin. But I was serious. lol Then i see these 3 white girls come outta nowhere. They were his groupies!!!!!ROTFLMAO!!!!! They were broke down!! lol But hey you gotta start somewhere right??? Well he puts in his mixtape in and it’s a hot mess. He raps over KiD CuDi day n nite song and it sounds like garbage. then he was like his video is gonna be on mtv next week and for us to look out for it. So heres my beef. If you on mtv homie, wth are u doing at a house party in Memphis on a Saturday night?? Its how many clubs here and u decide to stop at a house party with your homeboy? Did u think we were gonna call more people over so u can “get it started” like the black eyed peas??? Um no. leave and don’t come back. Ever in life.
*But it gets worse*
So its now like 2am and people are still here but slowly leaving. I go outside and I see my roommate older brother outside talkin. Now this man is 35yrs old minimum and so is his friend wit gold teeth ALLLLL across his front teeth. So they come in and the first thing this dude say is, “yall got some rotel dip?” I’m like dude its 2:30 am wth would we have that at this hour. Then he asks,” can I have some of those grapes in the refrigerator?” im like nigga naw!!! This guy was like a real life bruh man from Martin. So back to my roommate brother, why is he tryin to talk to this girl that is 19yrs old that aint tryin to hear anything he got to say. Talkin bout he 26!!! I mean I understand if u you like younger women but don’t lie about your age and definitely don’t do it when you are MARRIED!@!!!! Then to top it off dude was like lets get on Facebook and find some freaks. SERIOUSLY?????????????????? WHERE THEY DO THAT AT????????So they pretty much lingering around and its almost 5am. I couldn’t take it anymore so I decided to go to bed. My buzz was gone and I was starting to get a headache. Come to find out they didn’t leave until almost 7am!
So that’s how I spent my weekend. It was sooooo random! I’m still not ready to discuss what I want to write about yet, but know that the day is coming soon. I think that you(my readers) will be happy to read it. I hope u all enjoyed my story. Hope everyone has a great Monday and a great week!
Peace and love
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Friday, August 21, 2009
Wasssup!
Today was a great day! I came across 2blogs that I instantly fell in love with. One was these girls that all blog on the same blog and talk about their lives and whatnot and it's almost like reading a black version of sex and the city(not that I have ever watched it. No bruno :-/) but the blog that I am really excited about discusses music. Good music. Music that I love! R&B music. The writer just so happened to write about an album that I thought I was the only person that was excited about. I even wrote on Twitter how excited I was that the albu
is out. Then to find out another artist that I like album comes out next week! Can't wait to pick her brain on music. However I don't care for ledisi new album. It's too commercial to me. Her last cd had so much soul in it. This one just sounds like a wanna be chrisette michelle album with too much bounce. But then again I only listened to it 1time. I will check it out again this weekend so don't hold me too accountable for my comments.
So my ex thinks that I'm still talkin to AB. Everytime she calls and I'm on the phone she thinks it's her or she will ask have I talked to her. My thing is this, although I am NOT talkin AB, why does she care? She says that she isn't with that guy, but she has their picture on her phone still and talks about how she is going to miss her "boo". Then I ask her if she tells him that she calls and talks to me and she says she doesn't tell him. Why keep it a secret if they aren't together? Why assume that I am talkin to someone that I'm not. She says she doesn't "look" at me like that, but her actions speak otherwise. But hey, who am I to judge?
I've decided to forgo the new car and just fix my truck. It's not a terrible conditioned vehicle. It just needs new tires and and my door to be fixed. I can get that taken care of that in under $500 bucks. The rest of my money I can use for other things. My plane ticket home is one of them. I cannot wait! My cousins think that i'm not coming but i'm in there like swim wear lol
I have something else that I want to talk about but I'm gonna wait a little longer before I discuss it. I want to be sure that it's right for me to discuss. I don't think that last sentence even made sense or was even relevent enough to say lol i'm going to bed
peace and love
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is out. Then to find out another artist that I like album comes out next week! Can't wait to pick her brain on music. However I don't care for ledisi new album. It's too commercial to me. Her last cd had so much soul in it. This one just sounds like a wanna be chrisette michelle album with too much bounce. But then again I only listened to it 1time. I will check it out again this weekend so don't hold me too accountable for my comments.
So my ex thinks that I'm still talkin to AB. Everytime she calls and I'm on the phone she thinks it's her or she will ask have I talked to her. My thing is this, although I am NOT talkin AB, why does she care? She says that she isn't with that guy, but she has their picture on her phone still and talks about how she is going to miss her "boo". Then I ask her if she tells him that she calls and talks to me and she says she doesn't tell him. Why keep it a secret if they aren't together? Why assume that I am talkin to someone that I'm not. She says she doesn't "look" at me like that, but her actions speak otherwise. But hey, who am I to judge?
I've decided to forgo the new car and just fix my truck. It's not a terrible conditioned vehicle. It just needs new tires and and my door to be fixed. I can get that taken care of that in under $500 bucks. The rest of my money I can use for other things. My plane ticket home is one of them. I cannot wait! My cousins think that i'm not coming but i'm in there like swim wear lol
I have something else that I want to talk about but I'm gonna wait a little longer before I discuss it. I want to be sure that it's right for me to discuss. I don't think that last sentence even made sense or was even relevent enough to say lol i'm going to bed
peace and love
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
family that i love
today i went to a baseball game with my mom,sister, and moms best friend. we had a blast. today was the first time that i EVER consumed an alcoholic beverage in front of my mom and it was weird. but after the first few, it became cool and by the time i was on my 4th, it really didnt matter. lol it was fun hanging out with my new family tonight. i say new, because my mother was in a horrible marriage and she was very unhappy for years. she and my sisters father are divorced and she recently moved to another part of town and lives with her best friend. they are like teenage girls. they travel all the time and enjoy each other. i havent seen my mother this happy in years.
*But, back to tonight*
we had box seats at the redbirds game and they had free food and free beer. so that was freakin awesome!!! it was probably 75 people at this game lol but we still had a great time. we took those pictures that u take in those booths that give u like 6pics and u make those funny faces. it was cool. that was the first time i had ever been on a family outing like that in my life and i am 24 yrs old. so from now on 2 times a month we decided to have family night. 1 night will be at a restaurant and the other night will be at a fun place like bowling, skating etc. and when the grizzlies season starts back we are gonna go to the games. Elena(my moms friend) and i are going to see Lebron play in December and i can't wait. we are gonna have a lot of fun.
after i dropped them off, i called my pops cuz i hadnt talked to him in a min, so we talked for about 2hrs on things and i got him caught up on whats been going on in my life. i really miss him a lot. i miss being able to just sit and talk to him about things. even though i can do it on the phone, but i just miss being around my pops.....But anywho, we talked, i got great advise on life and relationships.
so that was my day, hope u guys had a great day,
*But, back to tonight*
we had box seats at the redbirds game and they had free food and free beer. so that was freakin awesome!!! it was probably 75 people at this game lol but we still had a great time. we took those pictures that u take in those booths that give u like 6pics and u make those funny faces. it was cool. that was the first time i had ever been on a family outing like that in my life and i am 24 yrs old. so from now on 2 times a month we decided to have family night. 1 night will be at a restaurant and the other night will be at a fun place like bowling, skating etc. and when the grizzlies season starts back we are gonna go to the games. Elena(my moms friend) and i are going to see Lebron play in December and i can't wait. we are gonna have a lot of fun.
after i dropped them off, i called my pops cuz i hadnt talked to him in a min, so we talked for about 2hrs on things and i got him caught up on whats been going on in my life. i really miss him a lot. i miss being able to just sit and talk to him about things. even though i can do it on the phone, but i just miss being around my pops.....But anywho, we talked, i got great advise on life and relationships.
so that was my day, hope u guys had a great day,
Monday, August 17, 2009
foolishness
hey everyone!
this morning i got a call from my ex and we talked for about 2hours. it was a good talk. we talked about what happened this weekend and the AB incident. she helped me realize that a lot of the things that i do wrong is that i put up with a lot crap that i dont have to. its like the things that she was sayin i already was thinkn about myself. i'm a good guy, but i entertain crap. these girls that i have around i dont need to have around. i already deleted a lot of numbers out my phone, so i'm about to finish it off today. i am no longer gonna have people in my life that i don't need to have around.
i mean im a grown man, and having females around just to be havin them around is a childish thing to do. my main focus is on finishing school and gettin my life together. i don't have time to playin anymore. its plenty of girls that think i'm cute and funny but i want a woman that has her stuff together. its plenty of good women in memphis and i'm gonna have one of them when the time is right. i dont want a girl that still doesn't know what she wants in life. if i have a plan, then she should too. its times that i get lonely and i allow foolishness to block my right mind, thus insert the hoes. but i'm really focusing on aaron. we can be cool when i see u in the streets, but other than that, its a wrap.
i was going to discuss a certain situation with an old friend, but there really isn't a point. i'm not going to waste time with that. so with that said hope u all have a great monday.
peace and love
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this morning i got a call from my ex and we talked for about 2hours. it was a good talk. we talked about what happened this weekend and the AB incident. she helped me realize that a lot of the things that i do wrong is that i put up with a lot crap that i dont have to. its like the things that she was sayin i already was thinkn about myself. i'm a good guy, but i entertain crap. these girls that i have around i dont need to have around. i already deleted a lot of numbers out my phone, so i'm about to finish it off today. i am no longer gonna have people in my life that i don't need to have around.
i mean im a grown man, and having females around just to be havin them around is a childish thing to do. my main focus is on finishing school and gettin my life together. i don't have time to playin anymore. its plenty of girls that think i'm cute and funny but i want a woman that has her stuff together. its plenty of good women in memphis and i'm gonna have one of them when the time is right. i dont want a girl that still doesn't know what she wants in life. if i have a plan, then she should too. its times that i get lonely and i allow foolishness to block my right mind, thus insert the hoes. but i'm really focusing on aaron. we can be cool when i see u in the streets, but other than that, its a wrap.
i was going to discuss a certain situation with an old friend, but there really isn't a point. i'm not going to waste time with that. so with that said hope u all have a great monday.
peace and love
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Weekend update
Hey everyone!
How was your weekend? I hope u all had fun. My weekend was ......interesting. It started off very boring as usual. My friend AB came by Friday night for a bit and left. Saturday I cleaned my room up and vacuumed and washed my clothes only to have Baxter mess it right back up again. Crazy mutt lol After that I went to the movies and watched District 9. It was hands down the best movie I have seen this summer and I've seen some good ones. It's def going in the collect when it comes out on DVD. I went to get some ice cream from my cousin job and just enjoyed a day to myself. Then I got a phone call......The ex
I started not to answer because of the bogus phone calls that have been made earlier in the week( being nosy yet not at the same time calls lol) but I did and she asked me what I was doing yada yada yada, and we ended up deciding on this Mexican place that she likes to go to. So the car ride there I'm like ok Aaron stay cool it's just a meal. Have one drink and try not to do anything stupid. Well we order these huge drinks. I had a bid light in one of those huge mugs and she had a margarita full of tequila. I took a sip and tasted all alcohol lol. Well we ate and talked for a bit and drank and by the time it was time to go she was out of her mind drunk. I hadn't seen her that drunk in a long time. Prolly since we went to B.R Louisiana last December. But I was not having her drive home. So she spent the night. I'll have to admit it felt good to have her in my arms again. I didn't want the night to end even tho she threw up several times. Hell it felt good takin care of her. I knew I missed her but it's the small things that I miss the most. And it hurt just as much as I enjoyed it because I knew that when she woke up the next morning she isn't going to stay with me she is going back to the guy she is seeing now. And I'm ok with it, because I got at least that one last night with her. I'm not going to try to break them up cuz I'm not that kind of guy. She's moved on and I will do the same. But I enjoyed last night.
Then this morning..
Come to find out AB was there gettin ready to record in the studio while my ex and I were leaving. I wasn't concerned about it because AB and I aren't together and we aren't on the path to be. Even tho I felt like I didn't need to, I told AB that I was with my ex the night before and she was like she knew who I was with when I came out the door and that it wasn't a big deal. So I'm thinkin it's cool. Wrong. Well when I get home from being out all day (10:30pm) she still here! I'm like ok whatever I know she is stickin around to talk so I'm just waitin on it. Even tho I feel like there is nothing to really talk about. I already told her what was up so it should have been left at that. WRONG AGAIN. so she comes into the computer room, on the phone mind u, talkin bout Im acting funny cuz my girlfriend was here this morning. Mind u guys, I heard her talkn on the phone earlier sayin, "yeah girl, I came over this morning and saw him walkin out the room wit his ex.." so I'm already slick pissed that she gossiping about something that she don't have any business talkin about. We not together so chill wit that. So back to what I was sayin, she comes at me with all that while she's on the phone wit god knows who, and I told her that I wasn't discussing anything with her while she is on the phone. So she tries to say a few things but I wasn't trying to get into all that so I just stopped talkin. Well 30min she comes in my room to talk and she's acting like she's all mad and I tell her that there is nothing to be mad about. If I saw her out anywhere wit another dude I wouldn't be mad at all. Why? Because we don't have that type of relationship. It's no secret that she has a lot of guy friends so why trip over something that's not worth gettin upset about? Then she tried to say she was upset that I was letting her come back every two weeks tellin her I miss her and taking her out and she doesn't want to see me get hurt. She made another slick comment but I'm too sleepy to think of what she said. Come to think of it she said something to my roommates about my ex to, but I really don't care because I could very easily say some things but I'm not going there. It's no point. But my response to her about me going out with my ex was I was bored and we went out and had fun. That's it. She wants to blow this into something it's not. i understand that she can be upset about it. it is a pretty messed up thing to walk into, but we both have our own things going on. She wanted me to get upset and beg her not to be upset. But I'm not doing that. Never have and never will. She said she "dumped" me as her friend and that's all on her. I'm not trippin about it either. To be honest I'm perfectly fine with it cuz I don't really want or need and extra drama in my life.
A new friend put me onto a blog that I really enjoy reading. I can relate to this guy a lot. Seems like we both have the same problems going on. It's good to see someone going thru some of the same things that u are going thru to help u move forward because it's like if he can do it, so can I. I also talked to my ex best friend today too but I will save that for when I wake up tomorrow.
Peace and love.
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How was your weekend? I hope u all had fun. My weekend was ......interesting. It started off very boring as usual. My friend AB came by Friday night for a bit and left. Saturday I cleaned my room up and vacuumed and washed my clothes only to have Baxter mess it right back up again. Crazy mutt lol After that I went to the movies and watched District 9. It was hands down the best movie I have seen this summer and I've seen some good ones. It's def going in the collect when it comes out on DVD. I went to get some ice cream from my cousin job and just enjoyed a day to myself. Then I got a phone call......The ex
I started not to answer because of the bogus phone calls that have been made earlier in the week( being nosy yet not at the same time calls lol) but I did and she asked me what I was doing yada yada yada, and we ended up deciding on this Mexican place that she likes to go to. So the car ride there I'm like ok Aaron stay cool it's just a meal. Have one drink and try not to do anything stupid. Well we order these huge drinks. I had a bid light in one of those huge mugs and she had a margarita full of tequila. I took a sip and tasted all alcohol lol. Well we ate and talked for a bit and drank and by the time it was time to go she was out of her mind drunk. I hadn't seen her that drunk in a long time. Prolly since we went to B.R Louisiana last December. But I was not having her drive home. So she spent the night. I'll have to admit it felt good to have her in my arms again. I didn't want the night to end even tho she threw up several times. Hell it felt good takin care of her. I knew I missed her but it's the small things that I miss the most. And it hurt just as much as I enjoyed it because I knew that when she woke up the next morning she isn't going to stay with me she is going back to the guy she is seeing now. And I'm ok with it, because I got at least that one last night with her. I'm not going to try to break them up cuz I'm not that kind of guy. She's moved on and I will do the same. But I enjoyed last night.
Then this morning..
Come to find out AB was there gettin ready to record in the studio while my ex and I were leaving. I wasn't concerned about it because AB and I aren't together and we aren't on the path to be. Even tho I felt like I didn't need to, I told AB that I was with my ex the night before and she was like she knew who I was with when I came out the door and that it wasn't a big deal. So I'm thinkin it's cool. Wrong. Well when I get home from being out all day (10:30pm) she still here! I'm like ok whatever I know she is stickin around to talk so I'm just waitin on it. Even tho I feel like there is nothing to really talk about. I already told her what was up so it should have been left at that. WRONG AGAIN. so she comes into the computer room, on the phone mind u, talkin bout Im acting funny cuz my girlfriend was here this morning. Mind u guys, I heard her talkn on the phone earlier sayin, "yeah girl, I came over this morning and saw him walkin out the room wit his ex.." so I'm already slick pissed that she gossiping about something that she don't have any business talkin about. We not together so chill wit that. So back to what I was sayin, she comes at me with all that while she's on the phone wit god knows who, and I told her that I wasn't discussing anything with her while she is on the phone. So she tries to say a few things but I wasn't trying to get into all that so I just stopped talkin. Well 30min she comes in my room to talk and she's acting like she's all mad and I tell her that there is nothing to be mad about. If I saw her out anywhere wit another dude I wouldn't be mad at all. Why? Because we don't have that type of relationship. It's no secret that she has a lot of guy friends so why trip over something that's not worth gettin upset about? Then she tried to say she was upset that I was letting her come back every two weeks tellin her I miss her and taking her out and she doesn't want to see me get hurt. She made another slick comment but I'm too sleepy to think of what she said. Come to think of it she said something to my roommates about my ex to, but I really don't care because I could very easily say some things but I'm not going there. It's no point. But my response to her about me going out with my ex was I was bored and we went out and had fun. That's it. She wants to blow this into something it's not. i understand that she can be upset about it. it is a pretty messed up thing to walk into, but we both have our own things going on. She wanted me to get upset and beg her not to be upset. But I'm not doing that. Never have and never will. She said she "dumped" me as her friend and that's all on her. I'm not trippin about it either. To be honest I'm perfectly fine with it cuz I don't really want or need and extra drama in my life.
A new friend put me onto a blog that I really enjoy reading. I can relate to this guy a lot. Seems like we both have the same problems going on. It's good to see someone going thru some of the same things that u are going thru to help u move forward because it's like if he can do it, so can I. I also talked to my ex best friend today too but I will save that for when I wake up tomorrow.
Peace and love.
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Friday, August 14, 2009
song of the day pt.2
i went waaaaaaaaaaaaaay back with this one. hope it brings back good memories!!!
enjoy!!!
enjoy!!!
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