Sleepless in Memphis

Hey guys and gals.



I've been in the bed for a while now but I can't sleep. I have a cough that I can't seem to shake. All my other symptoms are gone. It's just this darn cough. I need to shake this asap I've been losing sleep for the past week because of it. I also can't sleep cz I was sooo bored tonight. These are the times when being single sucks. Although I could very easily go through my phone and choose a girl, what's the point if I'm not really interested in seeing them or talkin to them for more than 5-10 min lol so after I deleted those numbers I was still looking at the clock at 11pm like what am I gonna do. See I knew this was gonna be hard cuz of the obvious but clearly I didn't think it would be like this. It would help out so much if I was back home in NYC so that I could always have something to do but here it's nothing. And when nothing comes around I start thinking and start looking in places I shouldn't. And after going a whole week I looked. But I didn't look at the blog, I Twitter looked and of course I saw what I already knew was going on. I wish that I had an opportunity to ask questions that I never asked that I should have asked. I did ask a couple questions that got answered but when I got my answers I didn't believe the response and the proof is in the puddin. But it's all good. My time will come. Now that I think of it, the questions that I wNt to ask have already been answered too. So I guess it's up to me to stop and break this bad habit. Cuz I'm pretty sure she isn't feeling how I'm feeling or doing what I'm doing. And that's cool she can do what she wants.

In other news.........


I'm gonna try to pick up a new hobby. I have a few in mind. Finally get my guitar fixed & Start writing music. My parents are too gifted for me to not be able to do it. My father is a piano player and choir director and my mother was a professional singer before she had me. So playing an instrument should come with ease for me. One would think thT right???? Lol

Side note*

have u ever ran into someone u had relations with And think to yourself WTH was I thinking?!?!?!? Man I saw this young woman and I was like man I was so stupid for that. But she had the nerve to look at me like I was the one that was fat and ugly. No ma'am. That's all u lol


Well I think that I am finally getting sleepy. I keep saying that I'm gonna stop bringing up my ex and my relationship but it always comes up. I'm not purposely doing it, it just comes out. I guess whenever I get over it, it will be gone from my blog. But like I said in the begining of first blog, this is 100% how I'm feeling when I decide to write these post. So I'm just speaking from the heart. I don't have anyone to say these things to, and I don't think I trust anyone enough to say ALL this to and not get looked at crazy, so I ease my mind here. :-)


Nite folks