i'm probably going to stop blogging from this site and strictly blog on my tumblr account. its a little more convenient and "on the go" friendly. so if you want to follow me on there, leave a comment so i can email you the link.
-Aaron
Monday, December 27, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
my decision
hey everyone! how are you guys doing? you like the new look??? i decided that it was time for a little change. i took the music off and i will just post songs of the day/week posts instead. things have really been moving fast for me lately. i decided to finally move away from memphis. things here aren't working out the way that i planned. sometimes you have to make decisions that are going to affect your tomorrow instead of today. i look at this move as a business trip. i'm moving to houston for school and school only. 100% focused. there are people here that only want to see my downfall and i will not let them win. my mom doesn't like the idea of me leaving, but thats only because my pops lives in houston. she still doesn't agree with my reasons for moving, but you can't let people's dislikes rule over you. i feel like in order for me to achieve my dreams and goals, i have to make this move. i have 2 semesters of school left. i can do it ALL online. i'm not missing a beat. still in school. still focused. after undergrad, i'm jumping right into grad school at SHSU. i was talkin to my "mid town crew" and they were telling me that its ok if i don't have the things i wanted by now or be in "that" part of my life yet. they basically said that my 20's was the decade when you find out who you really are and what type of person you are. once you hit 30, life just "clicks together". you just become a totally new person. i agree completely with that statement. it seems like a lot of times i make the dumbest choices and its all because of me being 25 and having the "wildin cuz i'm young" attitude. now i'm not saying that i just live like a rock star and i go clubbing every chance i get. but i mean it like, i can do/say something to someone and not think about how it may affect them. when you are 30 hopefully those days are long gone from your mentality. these next 5years i'm going to do whatever it takes to make sure that by the time i'm 30, everything that needs to be in place will be. i'm really excited about this. i'm really going to miss my friends and family in memphis, but i'm only a short car ride away so i'll be coming back and forth to visit all the time. its been real memphis but i gotta go! lol
peace&love
peace&love
Sunday, November 7, 2010
troubles
hey everyone! how was your week? and how was your weekend? sorry i didn't do a song this weekend. this week has been pretty rough for me. i had to find out the hard way who all i can call "family" in my own family. I've realized that sometimes you have to really watch who you call your friend as well. sometimes people want to be your friend just to get close to you to hurt you. for the first time in years i got into a physical altercation with someone. i'm not the fighting type at all, but i definitely will not let anyone put their hands on me either. I know 100% that this is a test from God, but you don't want to be like "Really God? Like seriously, why am i going through this. I'm not a bad person." i'm not one to question God or the tests that He puts me through; all i know is that i'm ready for my breakthrough.
peace&love
peace&love
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
We need to be past this/halloween party
hey everyone!!!! i am SOOOOOOO sorry for not blogging last week. i was trippin'. One night i said i was going to blog, but i stayed up tweeting instead. lol don't judge me. matter fact shout out to one of my followers for calling me out on it too. lol So with that said, i promise to do better to guys! #scoutshonor.
i kinda feel like discussing something that happened a few weeks ago before i jump into recent events. i kinda touched on it on tumblr, but i didn't go into detail on it. I'm a little skeptical about discussing things on my blog, because i have something called internet spies, or cowards if you will, they have been making up lies about me. My ex calls me and says that someone told her Ex's best friend who proceeded to tell her EX that she cheated on him the entire time they were together and that they received the information from me. Apparently, i had a conversation with this person and told them these things. o_O Now, normally i would brush it off, BUT when she called she had this to say. "i had to calm myself down before i called because i was going to go off." Now let me get this straight, you want to go off on me about something that was apparently said months ago that i DIDN'T EVEN SAY!!! i have NO interest in their relationship. never one time did i ask her friends about her OR him and their relationship. they always came to me with info about what was going on with her. why should i care about a relationship that has nothing to do with me. why should i care when she basically lied to me about their relationship the ENTIRE time she and i were supposedly "working things out"????? if anything I should have been the one going off. And then come to find out that their relationship was rocky the entire time?!?!?!?!?! what do i care for? when referring to my relationship with her now, i don't say her name at all. the only way that people that i have met within the past few months know who my ex is, is because they know her personally and she has said names. i don't say names specifically for that reason. i don't want people in my business. we have too many mutual friends and i would prefer things to be left unknown. i still don't know who this person is that said i said these things, but if you know me like you say you do, contact me and lets talk about it.we'll keep real and funky.
now that i have that off my chest i can move on to the fun stuff!
HALLOWEEN!
YO, no lie, i had the most fun ever this Halloween. i normally don't go out on halloween, but this year i was off and i didn't really have anything else to do and i was invited to a party so i decided to go. i dressed up as Allen from "The Hangover" i had the baby, the sling, the man purse *pause* the corny clothes and everything. in my opinion i had the best costume, because NO ONE else had anything like it. people were cartoon characters and entertainers, but i didn't see anyone that was original like mine. i took mad photos that night lol i didn't know a single person hardly at the beginning of the night, but by the time i left, i made a few new friends. even before i walked into the party people were already excited about my costume #shoutouttothehomieshay. this girl that was there made me this drink and i promise you guys, i've never gotten so drunk so fast in my life. lol like the beers i had, they had me good, but the that concoction had me GREAT!#shoutouttoladygaga lol my ex was there as well. i wasn't sure how that was going to go with what was said earlier, but it was cool. we didn't really talk much. we were cordial to one another. had a few laughs and that was it. drama free so that was nice.
there's one more thing that i want to discuss, but i have to wait until a few things develop, but when they do, you guys will be the first to know. i hope everyone that was able to vote today, voted. this is OUR generation. let's be responsible and take care of it. until next time folks
peace&love
i kinda feel like discussing something that happened a few weeks ago before i jump into recent events. i kinda touched on it on tumblr, but i didn't go into detail on it. I'm a little skeptical about discussing things on my blog, because i have something called internet spies, or cowards if you will, they have been making up lies about me. My ex calls me and says that someone told her Ex's best friend who proceeded to tell her EX that she cheated on him the entire time they were together and that they received the information from me. Apparently, i had a conversation with this person and told them these things. o_O Now, normally i would brush it off, BUT when she called she had this to say. "i had to calm myself down before i called because i was going to go off." Now let me get this straight, you want to go off on me about something that was apparently said months ago that i DIDN'T EVEN SAY!!! i have NO interest in their relationship. never one time did i ask her friends about her OR him and their relationship. they always came to me with info about what was going on with her. why should i care about a relationship that has nothing to do with me. why should i care when she basically lied to me about their relationship the ENTIRE time she and i were supposedly "working things out"????? if anything I should have been the one going off. And then come to find out that their relationship was rocky the entire time?!?!?!?!?! what do i care for? when referring to my relationship with her now, i don't say her name at all. the only way that people that i have met within the past few months know who my ex is, is because they know her personally and she has said names. i don't say names specifically for that reason. i don't want people in my business. we have too many mutual friends and i would prefer things to be left unknown. i still don't know who this person is that said i said these things, but if you know me like you say you do, contact me and lets talk about it.we'll keep real and funky.
now that i have that off my chest i can move on to the fun stuff!
HALLOWEEN!
YO, no lie, i had the most fun ever this Halloween. i normally don't go out on halloween, but this year i was off and i didn't really have anything else to do and i was invited to a party so i decided to go. i dressed up as Allen from "The Hangover" i had the baby, the sling, the man purse *pause* the corny clothes and everything. in my opinion i had the best costume, because NO ONE else had anything like it. people were cartoon characters and entertainers, but i didn't see anyone that was original like mine. i took mad photos that night lol i didn't know a single person hardly at the beginning of the night, but by the time i left, i made a few new friends. even before i walked into the party people were already excited about my costume #shoutouttothehomieshay. this girl that was there made me this drink and i promise you guys, i've never gotten so drunk so fast in my life. lol like the beers i had, they had me good, but the that concoction had me GREAT!#shoutouttoladygaga lol my ex was there as well. i wasn't sure how that was going to go with what was said earlier, but it was cool. we didn't really talk much. we were cordial to one another. had a few laughs and that was it. drama free so that was nice.
there's one more thing that i want to discuss, but i have to wait until a few things develop, but when they do, you guys will be the first to know. i hope everyone that was able to vote today, voted. this is OUR generation. let's be responsible and take care of it. until next time folks
peace&love
Friday, October 22, 2010
song of the day
ok so its friday folks!!! hope everyone had a good week. this weeks song selection was tough because i couldn't choose a song lol this selection process is harder than you think. songs back in the day were so good. lol but hopefully you all will like the song so without further ado, here's the song. some of my readers might be old enough to remember this song lol Have a great weekend folks! be safe out there.
peace&love
peace&love
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
weekend update 10/21/10
hey everyone!!!
i know i said i was gonna be back on Monday with my weekend update but, i had a long weekend. it actually didn't end until Tuesday night. but i really didn't do much though. i was suppose to take a little trip this weekend but it didn't work out. my friend ended up not being able to come so i had to stay in Memphis all weekend for fall break. this is the first time in 2 or 3 years that i didn't go out of town for the break but i got some much needed rest. so what did i do you ask? well, I'm bout to tell ya lol
Friday night i went to Memphis madness for out basketball team. i had a lot of fun. i ended up with my Cre and her friends. it was easily 15 of them. yeah they were THAT deep. so we all sat together and joked and enjoyed ourselves. then we when to this fish place downtown and it was ok. not the biggest fried fish fan, unless its catfish from a black restaurant lol so after we ate we went to this bar that i totally forgot the name of now, but we had some shots and then Cre and i left. but i want to go back and discuss some of her friends. first off let me say that i felt a little out place because i was wearing my Memphis tigers t-shirt and they all had on like polo shirts and nice slacks and the girls were all dressed nice so I'm clearly the kid in this situation lol but when we were all eating, i found out a few things that some of the guys did for a living and they were VERY successful. as in $$$$$$$$ SUCCESSFUL. it was very inspiring though at the same time because these guys were only a year or 2 older than me. they were very down to earth and they said that they would invite me out with them the next time they went out. they reminded me a little of my crew. i want my boys and i to be successful and still be close at the same time. hopefully in the next few years when we are all done with school and well into our professions we can be that way. time will tell......
Saturday was a BAD day for me. like i don't even want to discuss it, because it still pisses me off about what happened. eventually i will have to talk about it because there will be some changes made for me personally very soon, so i will keep u posted. Sunday i went to church and relaxed. i didn't really do much besides work on Monday. Tuesday night i went out to see one of my followers on twitter perform at this place in midtown last night. i honestly didn't think i was going to enjoy myself as much as i did. Sean put on a great show!! me and my first family attended and a few other people that they knew came too and we all had a good time.there were these guys that were there and they KNEW EVERY WORD TO EVERY SONG Sean did. it must be a great feeling being a performer and seeing people singing and relating to the songs that you wrote. after the show, we all went to my favorite place......HUEY'S!!! lol Sean came too and we all kicked it and talked had a really good time. man i wish i had recorded some of the show so i could upload some of it to show u guys. I'm gonna purchase his album next week when i get paid and i will have one of his songs for the "Song of the day" post.
so that was my weekend, very productive, yet relaxing at that same time. oh and if anyone wants to recommend songs for me to post for the "song of the day" post, feel free to do so! i enjoy the feedback that you all give me and i thank you all for your comments. also shoutout to my new blogger followers! thank you for stopping by and reading my blog! well that's all i have to say for now. have a good one folks!
peace&love
i know i said i was gonna be back on Monday with my weekend update but, i had a long weekend. it actually didn't end until Tuesday night. but i really didn't do much though. i was suppose to take a little trip this weekend but it didn't work out. my friend ended up not being able to come so i had to stay in Memphis all weekend for fall break. this is the first time in 2 or 3 years that i didn't go out of town for the break but i got some much needed rest. so what did i do you ask? well, I'm bout to tell ya lol
Friday night i went to Memphis madness for out basketball team. i had a lot of fun. i ended up with my Cre and her friends. it was easily 15 of them. yeah they were THAT deep. so we all sat together and joked and enjoyed ourselves. then we when to this fish place downtown and it was ok. not the biggest fried fish fan, unless its catfish from a black restaurant lol so after we ate we went to this bar that i totally forgot the name of now, but we had some shots and then Cre and i left. but i want to go back and discuss some of her friends. first off let me say that i felt a little out place because i was wearing my Memphis tigers t-shirt and they all had on like polo shirts and nice slacks and the girls were all dressed nice so I'm clearly the kid in this situation lol but when we were all eating, i found out a few things that some of the guys did for a living and they were VERY successful. as in $$$$$$$$ SUCCESSFUL. it was very inspiring though at the same time because these guys were only a year or 2 older than me. they were very down to earth and they said that they would invite me out with them the next time they went out. they reminded me a little of my crew. i want my boys and i to be successful and still be close at the same time. hopefully in the next few years when we are all done with school and well into our professions we can be that way. time will tell......
Saturday was a BAD day for me. like i don't even want to discuss it, because it still pisses me off about what happened. eventually i will have to talk about it because there will be some changes made for me personally very soon, so i will keep u posted. Sunday i went to church and relaxed. i didn't really do much besides work on Monday. Tuesday night i went out to see one of my followers on twitter perform at this place in midtown last night. i honestly didn't think i was going to enjoy myself as much as i did. Sean put on a great show!! me and my first family attended and a few other people that they knew came too and we all had a good time.there were these guys that were there and they KNEW EVERY WORD TO EVERY SONG Sean did. it must be a great feeling being a performer and seeing people singing and relating to the songs that you wrote. after the show, we all went to my favorite place......HUEY'S!!! lol Sean came too and we all kicked it and talked had a really good time. man i wish i had recorded some of the show so i could upload some of it to show u guys. I'm gonna purchase his album next week when i get paid and i will have one of his songs for the "Song of the day" post.
so that was my weekend, very productive, yet relaxing at that same time. oh and if anyone wants to recommend songs for me to post for the "song of the day" post, feel free to do so! i enjoy the feedback that you all give me and i thank you all for your comments. also shoutout to my new blogger followers! thank you for stopping by and reading my blog! well that's all i have to say for now. have a good one folks!
peace&love
Friday, October 15, 2010
Music Friday!!!
i haven't done this is in a LOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGGG time!! so i'm bringing it back. here's the song of the day. hope everyone has a great day and weekend! i'll be back on monday for the weekend update! be safe out there folks!
peace&love
peace&love
Sunday, October 10, 2010
weekend update
hey everyone!!!
how was your weekend? did u you guys go out and enjoy yourselves?? My weekend was ok. i work went to church and watched a lot of football. lol i met one of my followers too saturday night. really nice girl. she was very different than any girl i've met in recent months. very humble and wholesome. good sense of humor as well. she mentioned something to me that was kinda personal about her and it kinda surprised me. it's been a while since i've met anyone like her but what really surprised me is how she told me guys treated her. that really bothered me because she is a GREAT girl that any guy should be honored to call "his" girl. But then she said something that really got my attention she said that she wasn't worried about them because they weren't on her level spiritually. and that really impressed me. i don't EVER hear anyone say things like that and i realized that i want to be around more people like that. more girls that stand for something and mean it. but anywho, i had a fun night.
oh and if you haven't listened to Bruno Mars album, i suggest you do. its good. you're listening to a song from the album now!
peace&love
how was your weekend? did u you guys go out and enjoy yourselves?? My weekend was ok. i work went to church and watched a lot of football. lol i met one of my followers too saturday night. really nice girl. she was very different than any girl i've met in recent months. very humble and wholesome. good sense of humor as well. she mentioned something to me that was kinda personal about her and it kinda surprised me. it's been a while since i've met anyone like her but what really surprised me is how she told me guys treated her. that really bothered me because she is a GREAT girl that any guy should be honored to call "his" girl. But then she said something that really got my attention she said that she wasn't worried about them because they weren't on her level spiritually. and that really impressed me. i don't EVER hear anyone say things like that and i realized that i want to be around more people like that. more girls that stand for something and mean it. but anywho, i had a fun night.
oh and if you haven't listened to Bruno Mars album, i suggest you do. its good. you're listening to a song from the album now!
peace&love
Friday, October 8, 2010
The Everyday Struggles.....
As a child you never really know what your life will like as an adult. you don't think about bills, the realistic vision of having a family of your own and the responsibilities that go into place. i was fortunate enough as a child to live in a good environment and grow up to have good values and morals. i know first hand what its like to experience the climb from the bottom to the top to achieve the "American dream". i struggled with my father and my mother during their divorce. when one parent was doing well, the other, not so much. it wasn't til recent years that both sides were finally living comfortably. My father struggled to find his place in life and after 54 yrs of living he's finally found his place. My mother on the other hand, suffered in marriage to my step father for almost 20 yrs that she didn't want to be apart of for the last 10 yrs of the marriage. she's JUST now finally 100% happy. and i say that to say this, i don't know where my life is going to take me. i'm at the point in my life where if i choose option A, i go here. if i choose option B, i go there. i'm confident that i will make the right choices, but i don't want to have to go through hitting rock bottom in order to get to the "HAPPY" place in my life. Today was a real eye opening day for me because i felt the closing walls of reality get THAT much closer. I'm not living in denial or anything like that, but i'm just not happy. not 100%. i really feel like i'm rambling, but i'm really not. i know someone out there knows what i'm trying to say.
peace&love
peace&love
Monday, October 4, 2010
we DO exist
today on twitter there was a discussion about the "non existing" GOOD man. i'm so sick and tired of hearing this. women stay saying that good men don't exist or that "men aint shit" *excuse my french*. well let's think about that.what are YOU doing wrong? where are you getting or selecting your mates? where are u meeting these guys? the clubs? on beale street? the mall? i mean seriously. how do u expect to find a good guy when you are look in the wrong places? i wouldn't dare give my number to a girl at the club and think that she is "THE ONE". she's "the one" for the night. you can't possibly think that the guy that is a dope dealer, that already has 5 kids with 5 other women, is going to be a good man for you. he's in and out of jail constantly! but yet u staying by his side with a tattoo of his name on your neck. Get real ladies.
if a guy, like myself, comes to you on a respectable manor, you all brush us off. we are instantly put in the friend zone and you assume that we are the "push over" guy. Well that couldn't be any further than the truth. just because i don't sleep with every girl that walks past me or at least attempt to, doesn't mean that not any less of a man than the guy that is walking around with his pants hanging down. if you want a good man, stop settling for the trash that comes your way. just because u had a bad break up with an ex or he cheated on you, doesn't mean the next guy will. i'm not saying to just have your guard down, but don't have the wall at an unclimbable height. i would never take anything out on the next girl just because my ex did me wrong. if anything, i'm going to pick up on traits and signs to show me that you are either a good girl or someone i don't need to mess with.
idk if it's a nurturing, *that's not really the word i was looking for* thing that women feel the need to have someone around to make them feel "complete", not lonely, or what. but if you all take your time when you like a guy you will see what type of man he is. and stop sleeping with men so soon. that's key too. you want to see how long a guy will hang around? tell him you aren't having sex til you get married. see his response. No respectable man should want/wants to be with a woman that gives it up after a week (or less) as far as a relationship goes. At least I don't.......but what really bothers me the most about this, is that women already KNOW these things, but yet they want to STILL date the wrong type of guy and then a week or 2 later they want to curse the world.
man i had to get that off my chest. i'll check in with you guys later.....
peace&love
if a guy, like myself, comes to you on a respectable manor, you all brush us off. we are instantly put in the friend zone and you assume that we are the "push over" guy. Well that couldn't be any further than the truth. just because i don't sleep with every girl that walks past me or at least attempt to, doesn't mean that not any less of a man than the guy that is walking around with his pants hanging down. if you want a good man, stop settling for the trash that comes your way. just because u had a bad break up with an ex or he cheated on you, doesn't mean the next guy will. i'm not saying to just have your guard down, but don't have the wall at an unclimbable height. i would never take anything out on the next girl just because my ex did me wrong. if anything, i'm going to pick up on traits and signs to show me that you are either a good girl or someone i don't need to mess with.
idk if it's a nurturing, *that's not really the word i was looking for* thing that women feel the need to have someone around to make them feel "complete", not lonely, or what. but if you all take your time when you like a guy you will see what type of man he is. and stop sleeping with men so soon. that's key too. you want to see how long a guy will hang around? tell him you aren't having sex til you get married. see his response. No respectable man should want/wants to be with a woman that gives it up after a week (or less) as far as a relationship goes. At least I don't.......but what really bothers me the most about this, is that women already KNOW these things, but yet they want to STILL date the wrong type of guy and then a week or 2 later they want to curse the world.
man i had to get that off my chest. i'll check in with you guys later.....
peace&love
Monday, September 20, 2010
OH YEAH! I HAVE A BLOG! lol
so its literally been almost 2 months since i blogged....i think lol
there has been a lot going on in my life since that time i blogged. i've met some cool people, i've been reacquainted with old faces also. i'd don't have the time to go completely into detail about EVERYTHING but i will do the most that i can...
so school has started and i'm doing well in ALL of my classes. i'm taking Italian this fall and i enjoy it!! i don't really need it, but i want to take a foreign language for my own personal reasons. but i want to go to Italy next summer for my Bday. i've started saving up for it and everything. i'm hoping that by january 2011 i'll have the majority of it paid for. i remember talking about it to a friend of mine this past summer about possibly going together, but since we are no longer talking, looks like i will be traveling alone. one of my friends said she wanted to go, but we'll see if she decides to actually go. i have projects due in ALL my classes but i actually like being busy. i've never had so much work in college. it really makes me upset about how much i procrastinated with school in the past but i am glad that i can appreciate the hard work now.
social life....well, i wouldn't say that it doesn't exist, but i have been spending time with people that were in my life at one point in time, but left for whatever reasons but are now back. one thing i have learned is that you can't always control the paths that people take in life. if it just so happens to cross yours then u have to do your part to make an impression on that person so that they feel the need to keep u in it. and if they don't want you to be in it, then don't force the issue. i am so grateful for the people in my life now, but if for whatever reason they don't want to be in mine, then so be it. i wish them the best. still no girlfriend, but i'm not really worried about tho. she'll come when the time is right. 3.5 months of no sex and i'm going strong! lol
my grandmother isn't doing well at all. her health has gone on a downward spiral since the last time i blogged. some days are good, but the bad ones are very bad. i went to see her on saturday and i had to hold back from crying. i hate to see her in pain. its just a difficult thing to be exposed to when u are only used to seeing these things happen in movies or other families. i try to make sure i see her whenever i can. some days she knows who i am, other days she doesn't. so as u can see, i have to just roll with her moods.
thats all i have to really talk about for now. i'll be back later this week with more in depth information on my social life.
#peace&love
there has been a lot going on in my life since that time i blogged. i've met some cool people, i've been reacquainted with old faces also. i'd don't have the time to go completely into detail about EVERYTHING but i will do the most that i can...
so school has started and i'm doing well in ALL of my classes. i'm taking Italian this fall and i enjoy it!! i don't really need it, but i want to take a foreign language for my own personal reasons. but i want to go to Italy next summer for my Bday. i've started saving up for it and everything. i'm hoping that by january 2011 i'll have the majority of it paid for. i remember talking about it to a friend of mine this past summer about possibly going together, but since we are no longer talking, looks like i will be traveling alone. one of my friends said she wanted to go, but we'll see if she decides to actually go. i have projects due in ALL my classes but i actually like being busy. i've never had so much work in college. it really makes me upset about how much i procrastinated with school in the past but i am glad that i can appreciate the hard work now.
social life....well, i wouldn't say that it doesn't exist, but i have been spending time with people that were in my life at one point in time, but left for whatever reasons but are now back. one thing i have learned is that you can't always control the paths that people take in life. if it just so happens to cross yours then u have to do your part to make an impression on that person so that they feel the need to keep u in it. and if they don't want you to be in it, then don't force the issue. i am so grateful for the people in my life now, but if for whatever reason they don't want to be in mine, then so be it. i wish them the best. still no girlfriend, but i'm not really worried about tho. she'll come when the time is right. 3.5 months of no sex and i'm going strong! lol
my grandmother isn't doing well at all. her health has gone on a downward spiral since the last time i blogged. some days are good, but the bad ones are very bad. i went to see her on saturday and i had to hold back from crying. i hate to see her in pain. its just a difficult thing to be exposed to when u are only used to seeing these things happen in movies or other families. i try to make sure i see her whenever i can. some days she knows who i am, other days she doesn't. so as u can see, i have to just roll with her moods.
thats all i have to really talk about for now. i'll be back later this week with more in depth information on my social life.
#peace&love
Sunday, August 8, 2010
not the old me anymore
hey everyone,
i took a little break from writing and social networking for a few days last week because of my grams illness. she's not better but the fits aren't as frequent as they were this past week. i can't lie, with every phone call i received, i though that it was going to be THE call. But thank God that it wasn't. There have been a few isolated situations with some of my family members, but illness can do that to a family. But i have confidence that we will pull together. my cousin is coming home this week to help out. i'm gonna go over to the house on my off days this week so, i will get to do my part as well. My gramps still hasn't grasped that he can't treat her like he normally does. i think he's just in denial about his wife. i mean, she's been sick for years now, but this just came outta nowhere with the fits and wandering out the house and the stopped breathing. i know he's scared. we all are.......let me change the subject, i'm starting get a little sad.......
So, at church today, my pastor said something and it really hit home with me. he said something along the lines of how we can put people on these pedestals higher than the people that are really there for us. i am guilty of that to the 5th degree. i have these friendships with people in other states and i put them before a lot of people here in memphis just because they live in major cities and they have these great lives, whereas the people here in memphis are just as important and mean more to me than they do. i had a friendship with a young lady that you all may remember me talking about; i really liked her a lot and i really put her about everyone else, when she hadn't done anything special. we talked a lot sure, but what was it that made me want to treat her better than anyone here???? yeah, she was cute. great personality. head on right, but i have people here that were equally as great as she was. now i don't even talk to her. AT ALL. i tried to reach out to her last week and she didn't respond. so, what was all the extra credit for????? I tried to reach out to my homeboy too. he didn't say anything either. i mean it was like a slap in the face. i'm not a bad guy. i will admit when i'm wrong. everyone that knows me, knows that i will. i have no problem accepting responsibility for my faults. but when u de-friend me and not say anything when i try to make amends, that really pisses me off. at least have the decency to curse me out or say "hey, i don't think you and i should be friends anymore." But let me say this before it gets confused, i do not beg for friendships or relationships. if you don't want to be my friend, ok cool. i'm grown. i can handle it. i'm not going to cry about it. but at least give me the respect i deserve. or at least thats what i would do. if i didn't want to be friends with a person, i'm going to just tell them. i think this just shows me how forgiving i am of people and how i let people in without truly getting to know them. it's not like i didn't try. i can admit that i ignore signals, but when i do finally see them, its like "DUH AARON" lol there's more to this that i want to say or could say, but its really pointless at this point. Sure i'm going to miss the friendships, but u can't make anyone do what they don't want to do. i mean, once u get unfollowed on twitter or fb i guess thats the obvious sign that they are done being your friend right?....
last night my hs sweetheart came by my house. i hadn't seen her in 2 years. she got married around the time my recent ex and i got together. Tiff and i have always had a good relationship. even post breakup. we really didn't get that bad breakup experience. i moved back to NY and she moved to nashville to go to school so it was like we had no choice back then. but we have always been friends. although i know she loves her husband and her family, u can tell that there is still something there from the conversations that we have had in the past. i would never do anything to jeopardize her marriage. she WAS looking good though. i could see her happiness in her eyes and i must say that i couldn't help but become a little jealous. i want to be where she is. i want the family with 2 kids, nice home ya know. but anywho, we talked for a few hours about life and caught up on each others lives. i wouldn't mind talking to her more. maybe we could email or something. i know talking on the phone is not happening *i'm not a complete idiot* but some sort of communication would be nice.
that's all i have to say for now. u guys have a great week, i'll check in with you all later, OH! AND SHOUTOUT TO MY NEW FOLLOWER. YOU GUYS SHOW HER SOME LUV AND CHECK HER BLOG OUT!!
Peace&Love
i took a little break from writing and social networking for a few days last week because of my grams illness. she's not better but the fits aren't as frequent as they were this past week. i can't lie, with every phone call i received, i though that it was going to be THE call. But thank God that it wasn't. There have been a few isolated situations with some of my family members, but illness can do that to a family. But i have confidence that we will pull together. my cousin is coming home this week to help out. i'm gonna go over to the house on my off days this week so, i will get to do my part as well. My gramps still hasn't grasped that he can't treat her like he normally does. i think he's just in denial about his wife. i mean, she's been sick for years now, but this just came outta nowhere with the fits and wandering out the house and the stopped breathing. i know he's scared. we all are.......let me change the subject, i'm starting get a little sad.......
So, at church today, my pastor said something and it really hit home with me. he said something along the lines of how we can put people on these pedestals higher than the people that are really there for us. i am guilty of that to the 5th degree. i have these friendships with people in other states and i put them before a lot of people here in memphis just because they live in major cities and they have these great lives, whereas the people here in memphis are just as important and mean more to me than they do. i had a friendship with a young lady that you all may remember me talking about; i really liked her a lot and i really put her about everyone else, when she hadn't done anything special. we talked a lot sure, but what was it that made me want to treat her better than anyone here???? yeah, she was cute. great personality. head on right, but i have people here that were equally as great as she was. now i don't even talk to her. AT ALL. i tried to reach out to her last week and she didn't respond. so, what was all the extra credit for????? I tried to reach out to my homeboy too. he didn't say anything either. i mean it was like a slap in the face. i'm not a bad guy. i will admit when i'm wrong. everyone that knows me, knows that i will. i have no problem accepting responsibility for my faults. but when u de-friend me and not say anything when i try to make amends, that really pisses me off. at least have the decency to curse me out or say "hey, i don't think you and i should be friends anymore." But let me say this before it gets confused, i do not beg for friendships or relationships. if you don't want to be my friend, ok cool. i'm grown. i can handle it. i'm not going to cry about it. but at least give me the respect i deserve. or at least thats what i would do. if i didn't want to be friends with a person, i'm going to just tell them. i think this just shows me how forgiving i am of people and how i let people in without truly getting to know them. it's not like i didn't try. i can admit that i ignore signals, but when i do finally see them, its like "DUH AARON" lol there's more to this that i want to say or could say, but its really pointless at this point. Sure i'm going to miss the friendships, but u can't make anyone do what they don't want to do. i mean, once u get unfollowed on twitter or fb i guess thats the obvious sign that they are done being your friend right?....
last night my hs sweetheart came by my house. i hadn't seen her in 2 years. she got married around the time my recent ex and i got together. Tiff and i have always had a good relationship. even post breakup. we really didn't get that bad breakup experience. i moved back to NY and she moved to nashville to go to school so it was like we had no choice back then. but we have always been friends. although i know she loves her husband and her family, u can tell that there is still something there from the conversations that we have had in the past. i would never do anything to jeopardize her marriage. she WAS looking good though. i could see her happiness in her eyes and i must say that i couldn't help but become a little jealous. i want to be where she is. i want the family with 2 kids, nice home ya know. but anywho, we talked for a few hours about life and caught up on each others lives. i wouldn't mind talking to her more. maybe we could email or something. i know talking on the phone is not happening *i'm not a complete idiot* but some sort of communication would be nice.
that's all i have to say for now. u guys have a great week, i'll check in with you all later, OH! AND SHOUTOUT TO MY NEW FOLLOWER. YOU GUYS SHOW HER SOME LUV AND CHECK HER BLOG OUT!!
Peace&Love
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
hey everyone, i probably won't be blogging for a few days. my grandmother is really sick. she may have Alzheimer disease. to have her in this state is really hard to deal with. i don't want to see her go, but at the same time, i don't want to see her mind go along with her health. she doesn't deserve this pain. i'll keep u all posted.
peace&love
peace&love
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
it was all a dream
I’ve been having these strange dreams lately about friends and mystery women that i have never met before. they are all based around the same thing……dating. my most recent dream was about a girl that i have never met. if i remember correctly, she was of some other race, but i don’t remember which one. i remember she had a friend and she was at the party we were at. but anywho, we are at this party, and this girl and i were really lovely dovey. in fact, my friends were tweeting about it. and my ex was there too! she was tweeting about us too. it was really strange. but the dream ended with her and i going to the grocery store getting food for the two of us to cook. very random ending, i know. but recently i’ve been having dreams about relationships with people that i know, but i have never had romantic feelings for them. and then there are the dreams i have about girls that i have never met. either way, i hope that something happens because if the girl of my “dreams” comes to a reality, i want it to happen soon lol
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